QT: Against My Will

197 4.21 – Little Monster – Dangerous Angels

The flame in the lamp curled and swayed in the cozy room, casting an orange reflection on a young pair. Under constant watch, they must not dwell on lengthy conversations. Adjusting their body position, they tugged back into a torrent of chastise kisses. Putting the truth aside, they distracted themselves by going through every sentence that captured their interest, enjoying the hypnotizing joy at the same time.

Ru Quan, ‘She just got to know that she was a psychotic killer, and the first thing she asked was if she was my concubine? She shrugged it off as if killing was something she did on a regular basis... Is she trying to intimidate the other host? Because we all know, that this woman can’t even strike a chicken.’

‘Was I under his command for him to be so chill about me killing half of his harem? Because wouldn’t a normal person seek revenge? I got it; he wants me to pretend to be his little monster.’

Their thoughts didn’t match. Nonetheless, it left them guessing about each other’s intentions. Even though they never said it aloud, they knew that there was this undeniable force, pulling them closer.

“One last time,” Ru Quan made a statement as he locked their mouths for an n-th time. It was nothing wild. He didn’t want to repeat what that little boy did and lose control over himself. He changed his mind the moment she asked for more. “Or not,” he kissed her again. Her progress was such a pleasant surprise. “I thought I’d have to wait for five years or something,” he pecked her silly grin, “The other system left.”

“Isn’t it great? I spared us from all the courting ??.” The only people Bing Shi allowed to see Kuro was Hasan and Ren Han, aka Xuan Mu’s soul. Doing a few experiments with Ren Han, Bing Shi wanted Kuro to familiarize itself with his soul, but Kuro had no such skills.

The progress between Bing Shi and Ru Quan was so fast that they started to doubt everything. Especially Bing Shi, who was afraid that HQ was using Xuan Mu as an experiment. All these supernatural things made her question Xuan Mu’s existence in the mission worlds. She was becoming overly suspicious and paranoid, and it was backstabbing her at the worst moment possible.

‘~ Since when could Ru Quan see Kuro?’

‘Definitely not from the first day.’

.....

‘~It’s HQ’s doing. ‘

No, they are much more simple and too busy for such mind games. ‘

‘~ Another Host? ‘

‘I’d have puked on him. ‘

‘~ It has to be some witchcraft. Maybe he activated an item from the system shop. ‘

‘Yup. Definitely.’

[“Kuro, do all hosts have access to a same system shop?”]

[No.]

‘I have to find out how long it takes for the effect to drop. ‘

“You still didn’t learn how to shut them off during times like this?” Ru Quan licked her lips when he stopped being her center of attention, something he used to do a lot as her boyfriend.

“No...” Bing Shi shook her head, perplexed with her own reactions, “Xua...”

He hastily invaded her mouth with his tongue, tangling it around hers, taking in this new yet familiar flavor. What an extraordinary place to get lost in. He felt magic in his bones. Affection swirled by his skin as this woman wrapped him in the softest devotion he’s ever known.

The light grazing and rubbing of lips began to warm up their bodies from the core. Now that Bing Shi was not repulsed, why was she not making any advances towards him? Stimulating him until he turned into a jumble of hormones? If she attempted something, he could at least push her away. But no, she did much worse.

Gasping, Bing Shi took hold of his hand and placed it on her chest, so he could feel her erratic heart rate, “How are you doing it?”

‘~ He might be Xuan Mu’s soul.’

‘I know. I never crossed out that possibility. It’s just...’

‘Nobody prepared me for this.’

“...” Ru Quan coughed up, “We should stop before I start to imagine certain dark things.” Breathing heavily, he pulled his hand away, and nuzzled her to sit next to him, “Can you still accept something that has been lost and broken, then sewn back together by someone else...as brand-new?”

“Depends,” Bing Shi answered instantly, “No trash shall trespass my doors. What is its value?”

“...” Ru Quan narrowed his eyes at her poker face, “Don’t mind second-hand goods?”

“Some things’ value raises in time, no matter how many hands it passes by,” Bing Shi replied in concern, “I just came to accept the fact that my boyfriend has lots of split personalities. It’s like having a harem of men with different character traits but identical memories. If it were me, I’d just merge into one, and be done with it. I think I already merged with all the monkeys in my head. I bet they’re from my past lives.” Bing Shi knocked her head jokingly.

“Don’t hurt yourself,” chuckling, Ru Quan held her head towards his chest. “I don’t remember agreeing to be your boyfriend.” This woman, without his consent, suddenly decided to barge into his life, she engraved herself in his mind. Not once, not twice, not thrice! He could do literally nothing but watch how she spun his whole world upside down.

[“Kuro, how did it go?”]

[Host, whenever you weren’t looking through me, he pointed a middle finger at me.]

‘While training, Ziek said it was pure luck. He made lots of mistakes when guessing if I was looking or not. It seems like he was pretending for a case when a host attempts to act like him.’

“Who said I was speaking about you?” Bing Shi let him cares her hair with a proud smile, “So you took advantage of a fourteen’s year-old body without taking any responsibility?”

Ru Quan blinked his eyes, his hand froze in midair, “What did you say?” He lunged out of the sofa, scrutinizing his eyes at Bing Shi, who proudly spun before him in her above the knee, sleeping gown with long sleeves, “You’re saying that...Bing Shi, stop dancing!” When she stopped moving, he pointed at the large peaks at her chest, “You’re saying that... these belong to a fourteen years old girl?”

Bing Shi looked down, cupping up her breasts, she grinned smugly, “Yup.” She turned around and wiggled her bum at him, “And this too.”

*Wiggle-wiggle-wiggle*

“...I sinned,” Ru Quan laughed out loud, he wrapped his left hand around her waist. Pulling her towards his chest, he covered his face with his right hand. It would be fine if he was the same age as this body, about sixteen. But with how he was now, it felt so wrong. He was not a pedophile. “I tend to get a bit insane. I won’t tolerate you being a courtesan.”

“Hm... You’re right. No man would. Let’s stay as we’re now then.”

“...” Ru Quan held Bing Shi by the shoulders, looking her in the eyes, his madness filled the air, bringing others to knees with its suffocating oppression, “My rules are definite. You break them once, and we’re done.”

“Ah...What to do?” Bing Shi leaned over, speaking softly to his lips, “I never played by the rules.”

“...” Kissing her lips, Ru Quan carried her to the bed. He felt how she sucked in the madness and turned it into black wings on her back. The shine in her eyes reflected the light he could never reach. She transformed into something so beautiful that he couldn’t imagine changing one thing about her.

Bing Shi made a bad decision. Not yet understanding his personality, she was using an entirely different strategy on Ru Quan, thinking he’d give up if he knew that she’s doing it for someone else, like Ziek. However, it was doing the opposite. Ru Quan was pushing his plans further away. For her, he wanted to withdraw, to disappear completely. At this moment, he was not sure anymore. Her presence alone was enough for him to find his lost strength and confidence.

‘Why is he not changing?’

‘Maybe because I’m not accepting him as Xuan Mu?’

Ru Quan laid Bing Shi on the bed, covering her with a blanket, he smiled at her adorable expression, “Disappointed?”

Bing Shi turned away from him, rubbing her lips, she answered, “I never hoped for much.”

“...” Ru Quan stripped of his top, laying down next to her, he supported his chin with his palm, “I quit being a guard for Tui’s family. Mind taking me under your wings?”

“Hm...” Bing Shi mumbled incoherent things under her nose, “Why did you bring Fei Lan here... What’s your relationship... You’ve been avoiding this topic like plague... Suspicious...”

“She...” Ru Quan choked at her straightforwardness, “She might be my ex from the past.”