Too Much to Bear My Love

Too Much to Bear, My Love Chapter 188

Oscar planted a kiss on Amelia’s forehead and excused himself. “I’ll be right back.”

Amelia nodded in consent.

Oscar walked out of the room with her and Elizabeth, but Cassie felt sad as she watched him from

behind.

She took a deep breath and probed, “Oz, you are in love with her, aren’t you?”

Oscar paused, then he replied, “She is my wife.”

Cassie pouted in silence as they head back to her ward.

“Oscar, could you kindly help me carry Cassie back onto her bed?’ Elizabeth requested.

Oscar hesitated for a brief moment. He went ahead to bend down and carried Cassie. She wrapped her

arms around his neck and stared at him, enamored. “Oz, have I lost a lot of weight? Am I ugly now? You

have not looked me in the eye for a long time. Do you not love me anymore because I am no longer

beautiful?”

Oscar calmly put her down on her bed and turned to Elizabeth. “Mrs. Yard, have a seat too. We need to

talk.” He pointed at the sofa.

“Oz, let’s talk between the two of us,” Cassie pleaded.

Elizabeth looked tired and was not overbearing like the day before.

“Oz, you have a good talk with Cassie. I am tired and do not wish to be part of your affairs. I will wait

outside.” The threat of divorce from Charlie may have shocked her. She was visibly more subdued.

Oscar stepped forward and blocked her exit. “Mrs. Yard, why don’t you sit down? Amelia is in her room

with only two nurses. I do not wish for you to interrupt her rest.”

Both Elizabeth and Cassie’s faces fell upon hearing that.

Cassie face contorted as she shrilled, “Oz, are you worried my mom will hurt your wife?”

Oscar sat on the sofa, composed and with an air of dominance. “Better safe than sorry. In the past, I

have over-indulged you. From now, I shall not allow you to even think of hurting Amelia.” He made his

stand very clear.

Cassie bit her lips. She had never seen Oscar behaved this way to her. She could see no love in his

eyes.

What a big change in attitude! Did he lose all his love for me in just a few months? Or maybe he has

never loved me?

She shivered at her own thoughts but quickly brushed them off. She would want to believe Oscar only

wanted to scare her with such harsh threats. Indeed, she had to admit, she did go overboard and pushed

his limits.

Yes, that must be it. He still loves me. Otherwise, he would not have tolerated all my nonsense.

Cassie was not sure how Oscar felt, so she whined meekly, “Oz, Ms. Winters is your wife. I will respect

her. It is also my wish to be able to get along with her. I swear this is the truth.”

“Cassie, I do not want to beat around the bush. After this accident, I realized how important Amelia is to

me. I do not wish to divorce her. Let’s break up,” Oscar calmly declared.

Cassie was dumbfounded. She snapped out of the state of shock and hurled her pillow at Oscar. “Oscar

Clinton, don’t you have any conscience? You were in distress when she got into an accident. Why can’t

you feel anything when I had a miscarriage, attempted suicide, and almost fell to death?”

Oscar fixed his gaze at her. After a long while, he confessed, “Cassie, when love is gone, it is gone.

Even if we forced ourselves to stay together, we would not be able to recapture the passion we had.”

Cassie hid her face in her hands and cried her heart out.

Elizabeth walked up to her, hug her close, and consoled, ‘Cassie baby, it’s okay. Mommy is here for you.”

Cassie buried herself in her mom’s embrace and wailed. Elizabeth gently patted her back to console her.

Elizabeth stared at Oscar coldly. Unlike her usual emotional self, she expressionlessly said, “Oscar, I had

always thought you are a man. What a beast you turned out to be. If you did not love Cassie, why did

you cozy up to her? After you took advantage of her, you just cast her aside with the lame excuse that

you are not compatible?”

“I am prepared to make it up to her,” Oscar stated firmly.

That was probably the biggest joke Elizabeth had ever heard.

“Oscar, my daughter bore with the bad name of being a homewrecker and gave up her bright future in

Erihal for you. How are you going to make it up to her? With money? Mansion? Car? Shares? The Yard

family is not that poor that we need to settle for such things,” she sneered.

Oscar leaned back on the sofa and started reasoning. He spoke rationally. “Mrs. Yard, even if I had let

Cassie down, what you just said was not fair. We were both willing parties in our love. The only time I

supposedly took advantage of her, I was not conscious nor aware of what happened. I woke up to a

bloodied stain on the bedsheet and Cassie’s claim that I slept with her. From what I gathered, she had

affairs with a few men before that. I don’t believe she gave me her first time.”

Cassie’s expression changed. She stared at Oscar in disbelief. “Oz, you checked on me?” she asked

dryly.

Oscar stood up. His towering figure was intimidating and his tone was cold. “Only someone with a clean

reputation can marry into the Clinton family. One with a history of messy personal relationships would not

qualify.”

Cassie turned pale and clammy. So he was aware of the past she left behind in Erihal, yet he feigned

ignorance. She thought she concealed it well, but apparently, nothing escaped him.

“Oz, you knew about my past. Why did you never bring that up before?” Cassie looked at Oscar and

asked bitterly. “Was it satisfying for you to watch me desperately trying to hide my past like a fool?”

“No, I thought I love you, thus I was willing to overlook the wilful deeds you committed.” Oscar did not

accept her accusation.

Cassie was dumbfounded again. When she recovered from her shock, she cried out, “If you loved me

then, why not now? What have I done wrong? Yes, I had relationships with a few men, but it was

because I was trying to get you out of my mind. I wilfully went to Erihal and was mesmerized by the

glamor there. I was enchanted by the unique culture and the newfound friends I had. That only lasted for

a few months. I felt empty without you and started missing you a lot. I regretted leaving you. I wanted to

come back to you, but when I heard you got married, I was furious. You kept saying you loved me, yet

within a few months, you got married to a stranger. I felt cheated, so I started pubbing, clubbing, and

going out with different men out of spite. It was all because I was trying to get over you. I did not date

them for long.”

She butterflied amongst men because she loved him? What a joke. “You have changed, Cassie.” That

was the only thing he could say.

“Oz, what about yourself? Have you not changed in these five years? On the surface, you seemed to

indulge me, but in fact, you were reluctant to be intimate with me. You kept giving the laughable excuse

of saving ourselves for marriage. I think you just despised my body.”

Oscar only looked on quietly as she ranted.

Cassie felt she was being stabbed in her heart and she lost color on her face. “Oz, you are ruthless. You

said you loved me, yet you kept your distance from me. The reason I chose to leave for Erihal on our

wedding eve was that I was unsure if you really loved me. I was worried you only got used to having me

around and what’s between us was not love. My pride would never allow that, so I chose to run away.”

Oscar was looking down, so one could not read his mind.

Cassie’s eyes were red and she could not stop crying. “Oz, I really love you. I am willing to stay by your

side without any condition. When you are tired, you can come back to me. Don’t leave me, please. I

know I was in the wrong. I promise I will not be wilful in the future. I will stay by your side without making

any fuss. Please don’t leave me,’ she pleaded.

Before Oscar could even utter a word in response, Elizabeth screamed, “Cassie, what are you saying?”

Cassie faced Elizabeth and shrilled, “Mom, keep out of our affairs. I love him. For him, I am willing to be

called a homewrecker.”

Elizabeth was raging with anger. She pointed her finger at Cassie and scolded, “Cassie Yard, go ahead

and humiliate yourself. I can’t be bothered anymore. How did I get a daughter like you? You brought

shame to the family. In order to defend you, I nearly got divorced by your dad, yet you gave up your

dignity for a man. I will wash my hands off your matters. You do as you like. I am going out for a

breather.” With that, she stormed out of the room.

Cassie watched her mom stomp off and there was no expression on her face.

She got down from her bed and walked up to Oscar. She kneeled in front of him and held his hand to her

face, begging, “Please don’t leave me, Oz. I know I had a blemished past, but I really love you. I cannot

live without you. Please forgive me just this once. I will be good from now on.”

Oscar withdrew his hand, stood up, and said, “Cassie, I think the most important thing at present is for

you to rest well and get well. When you have recovered, we will sort out our affairs.”

Cassie fell forward and grabbed his leg. “No, Oz, don’t leave me. I don’t believe you will be so heartless

to me. I promise I will not threaten you with suicide in the future. Really! I will behave myself from now

on, I swear.”

Oscar looked down at her and firmly removed her hands. “Have a good rest. We will discuss again after

you get well.” With that, he ended their conversation and left.

Cassie collapsed on the floor. She looked on miserably as Oscar opened the door and disappeared into

the doorway without turning back. A look of vengeance replaced the sorrow in her eyes.

“Oscar Clinton, you want to spend the rest of your life with Amelia in bliss? That’s wishful thinking! If I

can’t have you, I will not allow Amelia Winters to have you either. You promised me you will divorce her. I

will make sure that happens. She will definitely not stay as Mrs. Oscar Clinton forever,” Cassie growled,

her face contorted with rage.