To Love You Again

Chapter 70 - Troubles of Heart

Linfeng opened his eyes wide. His heart was heavy and painful. Like it was breaking. He stand up and went to the bathroom.

He stared at the mirror then started washing his face.

He dreamed again.

And everytime he dreamed he was crying.

He get a towel and dried his face. His eyes were still red. He looked like he cried so much in his dreams.

Lately, he'd been dreaming. And his tears would woke him up. He never knew that he was such a cry baby. He wondered, what kind of sad dream he had that he cried for it? He want to remember it. But it was like lightning that would flashed in his eyes and went gone. The feelings would only remain. He already consulted with a physiologist before. He was worried that maybe some trauma existed in his mind that he did not know of. And that would be bad if it was not cured in early stages. Because of his title as an aide, his state of mind should be healthy.

However the physiologist was clueless about it, he was even curious of Linfeng's dreams. The physiologist said that dreams work with our subconscious mind. It would be triggered by strong thoughts such as desires and emotions. The physician kept asking him if there's a time that he cried so much that he felt broken and helpless. He said no. He did not remember such a day. He was trained since young. His heart was strong. His mind was supposedly strong too.

The physician just gave him advise to keep his mind relaxed and peaceful. Linfeng asked for sleeping pills as he could not sleep well after he woke up from his dream.

Linfeng went to his balcony and stared at the sky full of stars.

"What is more beautiful? The sight below or the scenery above?"

(A/N: Sorry for being here. I just wanted to remind you that one (italic) is in chapter 33. Bye bye now)

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The image of a girl asking this softly appeared in Linfeng's mind. Below her was the city lights. Above her was the stars.

Her eyes were clear and anticipating for something.

Linfeng's disturbed heart and fuzzy mind slowly dissipating. He let his mind wonder of that day, the day when they hold hands, laughed softly to each other, and exchanged keychains.

Linfeng suddenly smiled. He wanted to hold his keychain now. He returned to his room and reached out to the drawer beside his bed. He hold his keychain and felt their names in the figures.

He remembered how Xiong Zhi inexplicitly gave this keychain to him and run away. Like a puppy that done something naughty. She was really cute. Linfeng did noticed he was smiling so much that his teeth shown.

Linfeng's thoughts was full of Xiong Zhi. Her beautiful image in white blue hanfu came to his mind. Her beautiful fingers plucking the guzheng. How she tilted her head and swayed to the music made her so adorable. How she smiled at him..and how she hugged him...

Then he smiles faltered.

He saw how she broke into crying. How she clutched to his robes. Like he was the only saving straw she has.

'And it all began when she met that Guan guy.'

Remembering Guan Gao Huan, Linfeng knew he would never like the man.

He stared back at the keychain again.

'What make her lose her composure? Did they met before? Why the young Miss wants to avoid that guy?'

Linfeng felt that Xiong Zhi had a strong impression on that Guan guy.

His mind was troubled again.

After a few hours, he took his phone and dialed a number. He keep dialing the number until the other picked it up.

"For the beauties sake Linfeng, do you know what time is it?" Jang Shin said irritably.

"It is [email?protected]#ckng 3 am!" Jang Shin said through gritted teeth with his eyes closed.

"I know. I have a watch here." Linfeng answered not sounding sorry at all.

"What did I commit in my past life that I have a friend like you?" Jang Shin said with extreme sadness. This man doesn't appreciate him yet he (Jang Shin) treated him (Linfeng) with kindness.

"I need you to investigate on someone." Linfeng directly said.

"Sh#t! Can it wait later?! When everyone is awake! I thought you are [email?protected]#ckng dying!" Then Jang Shin sigh. He felt like crying.

"I can't wait for later. I tried. But in the end I still called you." Linfeng was saying the truth. He tried to wait and sleep. And assigned this task to Jang Shin tomorrow. But he can't sleep and he needed something to do so that his mind would relax and he would feel better.

"....." Jang Shin do not want to rebutt anymore.

"Who? Am I doing a full investigation for that?"

"Yes. Use every resources. I want to know everything in that Guan second heir. Guan Gao Huan."

"A Guan?! That's impossible!"

"Use SC."

"Still. We are just starting. We need good reputation right now and not to be mixed up with bigger parties. Linfeng, I don't know why you want to investigate this guy. We keep a tab on him before but he discovered us. Yet he just let it go. It means his defences are great. SC cannot take him now."

Linfeng massaged his forehead. His head was hurting as he also knew these things. SC company was like an ant to Guan Empire. If they got this big empire as their enemy they will be smashed easily and destroyed in one day.

It would be difficult to investigate this guy.

"I know of course. It's just..like.." I need to do something.

"Linfeng. You said before that we must be careful and cautious in every move we make . That we should not let the other big empires out there be alerted. Especially the circles of Old Xiong."

' I know. I know that of course. I know that is the right thing to do. But... I need to know. I need to know their connections. Why Xiong Zhi act that way? Why she was afraid of him. And how..can I protect her?'

Yes. Something inside of him was screaming to protect her. Not let her wonder away from him.

Funny. He thought. He just met the Young Miss a couple of months ago. But now he had this feeling of protectiveness for her.

It was not right for his aspirations. Yet perfect for his job as an aide. He laughed bitterly. What a conflict.

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