The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

Chapter 186 I can't believe that Silas is here. I know that he is persistent and doesn't easily give up, but I didn't think that he would followto another country. How did he even know that I'm here? I quickly put on a T-shirt and sshorts before making my way to the lobby. Has he already booked a room here? Is he going to stay for as long as we're staying? We're leaving in two days, and I bet there's Knox's bachelor's party he should be preparing for by now. Has he hired somebody to do the preparations while he busies himself with followingto another place? When I reach the lobby, I take a deep breath and look for him. I don't know what he wants to say and I'm not sure if I can listen to him without giving in. It doesn't takelong to spot him. I can easily spot Silas wherever he is.

His eyes meet mine and a small smile appears on his lips. I haven't seen him for ten days and I have to admit, it looks like he has cleaned up well. He has shaved his beard and his hair looks good. I remember that he got a haircut before the fashion show. He toldthat. Something about his face seems different in a good way. It looks brighter and generally, he looks more handsome.

"Hi, Rosie." He sounds nervous in an adorable way that almost makessmile. No, I shouldn't be thinking like that. I'm mad at him. I left him divorce papers.

"Hi, Silas." It's so hard to prevent myself from smiling at him. "What are you doing here?" I ask although I know the answer.

chere for you. I need to talk to you," he says. He's staring into my eyes, making it hard forto have control over my own feelings. My heart is beating quickly.

"There's nothing to talk about. I left you the papers and I just need you to sign them." Why do I suddenly have this feeling that I'm going to break into a million pieces if he does that? "I'm not going to sign them, Rosie. I'm not going to let you walk away," he argues, and I shake my head.

"Are you going to forceinto staying with you?" I fold my arms over my chest.

"No, I'm not going to force you into anything. I'm simply going to show you what you mean to me. I will show you that I regret everything. I love you, Rosie. I never stopped and I'm sorry that we needed to reach this point, so I could realize how horrible I had been, but I will fix it all." He sounds sincere. My heart flutters at his words and I curse that organ for beating for nobody else but Silas.

"You shouldn't have come. I don't want to ruin Sabrina's bachelorette party by causing any ," I change the subject, looking away from him.

"I'm not going to ruin anything for her. Don't worry about that. But your birthday is tomorrow, and I'm not used to spending that day away from you. I just wanted to tell you happy birthday," he tells me, managing to takeby surprise. "Why do you seem, surprised, Rosie? Did you think I would forget your birthday?" "No, it's..." I don't even know what to tell him. He has managed to renderspeechless. I know that he has never forgotten my birthday, but this year is different. Everything has changed between us.

"I'm twelve days sober," he letsknow, and I smile.

"I'm proud of you? I hope I sound as genuine as I feel.

"I'm also doing well in physiotherapy and the doctor toldthat I might be able to play again in two months," he givesmore information about his life.

"I'm really happy for you, Silas. I'm glad that you're getting back on track." I hate that it took my leaving for that to happen 1/2 D 17:19 Tue, Dec 3.

Chapter 186 because I never wanted to leave in the first place.

"I'm sorry the you had to walk away forto realize the mess I made." Why is he reading my thoughts? "But we can fix this, Rosie. Just givea chance to prove to you that I can fix what I broke." 45

"I still need time, Silas. Maybe we can talk after the wedding," I tell him. His shoulders slump and the expression on his face tellsthat he's disappointed. I hate disappointing him when he's doing so much to get his life back on track, but I'm also still confused. I need tto think about everything. Even if I'm going to take back my decision about divorce, I need skind of security that would guarantee I could trust Silas.

"I'm not going to sign the divorce papers, Rosie. I'm not giving up on you easily. I need you to keep that in mind," he tells me. I don't know what to tell him. I'm not sure if I want him to sign the documents or fight more for me.

I don't know anything anymore. I thought that I wanted a divorce but seeing him in front ofafter he cleaned up his act is messing with my brain. I'm one step away from asking him to spend the night with me.

"We will talk later, Silas." That's all that I manage to say.

"Do you think I can hug you? I miss you, Rosie." The look in his eyes forcesto give in. I only give him a small nod, but he catches it and Inod, but he doesn't miss the chance to holdtightly in his embrace. It takesa second to react and do the same. For the first tin a while, I feel like I'm with the man I fell in love with. I feel like I can see the man I married.

"I'm greedy when it comes to you, Rosie, so I'm just going to shoot my shot and hope for the best. Do you think I can take you out on a date tomorrow to celebrate your birthday?" He sounds so hopeful, but I cannot accept this. I cannot let him takeon a date now, because this is going to cloud my judgement more than it's already clouded. "I don't think it's a good idea, Silas," I say, stepping away.

"I figured you'd say no, but I just needed to ask." He givesa sad smile. "Happy birthday, beautiful. Take care of yourself." He kisses my forehead before walking away, leavingmore confused than I have already been.