Samsara Online-Novel

Human beings were stubborn and selfish by nature. One’s own desires always prevailed over the desires or needs of others; it was very rare for a person to be willing to sacrifice their own happiness for the good of others.

Human beings were emotional beings. Each person’s emotions generally dominated over the brain and logic when the heart took the lead.

Because human beings were stubborn, selfish, and emotional by nature, no man or woman would be happy if the person they loved, with whom they wanted to spend the rest of their lives together, was with someone else... The phrase "if she/he is happy, I am happy" was only valid for fantasy tales; the real world was cruel.

None of the men present were willing to accept Shen Xinya’s words easily.

Because if she, the goddess loved by countless men, loved someone, they would all undoubtedly feel bad and angry about it. Just to imagine the woman they loved in the embrace of another man would make everyone’s blood burn furiously.

As if a volcano that had been silent for several centuries, the place that a moment ago had returned to silence, erupted once again with all kinds of shouts.

Many of them even shouted really unpleasant things.

However, not all those present were men.

Shen Xinya not only had a large number of male fans, but she also had a large number of female fans.

The women in the place stood up and started shouting in a piercing voice at the men next to them.

Shen Xinya observed everything calmly. She knew that her words could cause a commotion, but she didn’t mind. She had decided to live her life in her own way. Since everyone was selfish, why couldn’t she act selfishly too then?

The shouting and cursing continued for a full ten minutes until the anger of the now heartbroken men in love subsided.

"Xinya, we support you!"

"Fight for your love!"

"Even if that guy already has someone in his heart, don’t give up!"

The women began to shout words of encouragement and Shen Xinya’s beautiful eyes flooded with tears that she struggled not to let them fall.

Although she already expected it, it was not easy for her to see the angry face or hear the curses of persons who not even fifteen minutes ago smiled at her and praised her so openly.

"I’m sorry if my words hurt any of you." She continued, her voice as soft as at the beginning. "But... I’m a person, too. I too wish to be loved. I too have dreamed countless times of waking up next to a person who makes my heart tremble at every second... Is it wrong to yearn for love?"

It is wrong to yearn for love... These words were a powerful wake-up call for the men who were angry.

Was it really wrong to yearn for love? No. Of course not. Everyone, even the coldest and cruelest person in the world, at some point in their life, would yearn for the love and warmth that another person’s embrace could provide.

After the anger that clouded the thoughts and rationality of every man in the place disappeared, all that was left was pain and shame.

Shame for the way they had behaved before. How selfish they were being... They could love but Shen Xinya had no such right? She was a person too! Before being the most beautiful woman in Asia, before being the hottest star of the century, before being the goddess of countless men’s dreams, before everything, Shen Xinya was a woman! A young woman in her early twenties who wanted to feel love!

Tears of sorrow and regret filled the eyes of the ashamed and heartbroken men. Sobbing and even disconsolate crying began to take over the silence.

"Fight! Goddess Shen, fight for your love!"

Finally, one of the men shouted.

With an earlier case as an example, many men stood up and began to shout words of encouragement one after another. In just a few moments, thousands of shouts of praise and encouragement echoed through the place!

Xie Feng simply observed the situation with calm and analytical eyes. It would be a lie to say that he was not slightly surprised by the sudden change.

From anger and curses to cries and compliments... Humans were emotional beings after all.

Two small crystalline tears slowly slid down Shen Xinya’s smooth face. She had been singing for over three years, had signed many autographs, and had taken countless pictures with many of her fans; it would be a lie to say that she didn’t expect support from all of them deep in her heart, even if she had already made up her mind.

Those two small tears, insignificant and unable to change the flow of time or the way the world rotated, caused the outburst of words of encouragement and praise to rise to terrifying levels.

Xie Yao was shocked. Apart from her, Mu Wuying and Gu Qianxue also had obvious feelings for Xie Feng. However, she was the only one who knew with absolute precision who Shen Xinya was talking about and who she was in love with... Xie Yao was surprised because she did not expect that Shen Xinya had taken the decision to leave the music world.

During Yao Mei’s birthday party, Xie Feng openly expressed his intentions to be with her, but at that time Shen Xinya did not give a clear answer and ran away saying that it was a joke. But apparently, she had made the decision to fight for love.

As for whether Shen Xinya was willing to share or not, Xie Yao did not know. She only knew that she was not jealous and would accept her with open arms; but if she intended to keep Xie Feng for herself, then that was something Xie Yao would not accept no matter what.

"Thank you very much, everyone." After the waters subsided again, Shen Xinya thanked in a voice suffocated with emotions. Everyone was silent, their hearts fluttering, listening to her next words.

After taking a few seconds to calm down, she smiled beautifully and said joyfully, "I will definitely fight for love! That’s the main point of all my songs after all!"

Applause and cheers erupted with fervor.

Amid such a noisy but joyful atmosphere, Shen Xinya shouted, "Everyone, please enjoy! I hope we can all make this last concert one that will be memorable for all of us!"

The music immediately turned on and all kinds of colorful lights started flashing all over the stadium.

"Turn the stars at the centre of the world.

If you sneeze, a butterfly in a forest somewhere will dance.

The door you guard has a useless key.

It’s an embarrassing story.

Though they often lick one another, lions are strong.

I want to survive.

I want to survive.

I still can’t stop wanting to live.

Guided by the constellations, our eyes met."

Shen Xinya’s beautiful voice struck everyone’s heart, calming the agitated emotions that weighed on each of them.

Xie Feng and his group had small smiles as their bodies in their seats swayed gently to the rhythm of the song.

This was the first time Xie Feng had taken the time to listen to Shen Xinya sing. Previously he had not known that Shen Xinya was actually Xiao Xinya, the girl he had met during the time he lived in the orphanage before being adopted by Xie Yao’s family. Since he didn’t know and didn’t care about the music world or the news, he never bothered with her songs.

However, now that he heard her singing, he finally understood the reason why she was so popular and loved. Shen Xinya not only possessed a beauty comparable to that of a goddess; every movement of her body, smooth as water flowing through a river, was capable of enchanting everyone’s gaze, her voice so hypnotic and intoxicating that bad emotions were driven away and the soul relaxed enough to imagine themselves in a meadow surrounded by all kinds of colorful flowers and birds flying peacefully.

Each person had his or her own problems; health problems, relationship problems, unrequited love problems, work problems, etc. However, the songs, Shen Xinya’s voice, every gesture she did while singing had the capacity to calm the mind and, for that short time, truly enjoy the peace and joy of being alive.

Even Xie Feng was no different. Although he was powerful to many, only he knew how weak he really was. Only he knew how heavy each step he took was as he tried not to fall; because if he fell, Xie Feng knew he would be dragging his loved ones down with him. Many only saw him as a powerful person, with money, and beauties by his side... But none really knew how heavy his burdens were, even though he was only 20 years old; an age when most young people enjoyed life with no worries other than studying.

As he listened to her sing, Xie Feng couldn’t help but think how nice it would be if she stayed by his side forever. That way, he could listen to her beautiful voice for a lifetime.

The concert continued for over an hour and a half. During that time, Shen Xinya didn’t even stop to rest once except for a minute or two between each song.

"Unfortunately, all good things must come to an end." With small drops of sweat sliding on her nose, Shen Xinya smiled. "To conclude and bring my last concert to a final close, please let me share with you my first composition. I call this song ’Love of God’."