QT: Against My Will

446 7.70 – [EXTRA CH.] – Lock Her Up In A Room – War Of The Wickeds

The reason why Julliet choose to be in Silvia’s team instead of Riley’s was because her chances to shine were greater, considering Silvia’s lack of character. Now that she witnessed it with her eyes, how could she compete with such an attention seeker?

Juliet didn’t feel like being under Silvia’s command again, “You can take back the second in command position.”

Liam perked his ears, “What? Did I hear right?”

Juliet squeezed his ears, “Go back to your babe and leave me alone.”

“Or what? Don’t forget you still owe me a new strap for a watch,” Liam followed Julliet as he yelled at Silvia from afar, “I’ll kill whatever bastard that wants to marry you! You are mine!”

“...” Juliet had never thought of winning the competition before. All she cared about was getting revenge for her parents and siblings. Her father was killed by a group of thugs. Her mother was beaten by the man those groups of thugs worked for. Her grandfather killed them in the belief it would toughen her up.

But he was wrong. Juliet’s mind was filled with anger. She hated the world order so much that she wanted to destroy it. She wanted to kill everyone who hurt her family. She wanted to see them suffer.

In order to achieve her goal, she needed to be strong. She needed to win. So she trained harder than anyone else – she became the strongest in her clan. At first, she struggled to accept that this school had so many people more powerful than her.

When she realized she couldn’t beat them, she gave up and began to hate herself. She despised her body. She loathed her parents. She blamed them for making her an Alpha. If she was born a Beta, she would have had a normal life.

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‘~I’m back.’

Dai An sat cross-legged on a small mat woven with grass and flowers to keep her cool in a secluded part of Bing Shi’s mind, waiting for a connection patiently.

‘Dai Aaaaaan, welcome baaack. I missed you so much!’

‘~I missed you too.’

The ache of loneliness gnawed at Dai An’s stomach not because Bing Shi wasn’t there, but because she couldn’t share this beautiful view with anyone.

Bing Shi winced in bitterness from the wave of plague that came together with Dai An’s appearance. Her head throbbed in rhythm with the eerie screams that rang out across the field like animals trapped inside their own skin. The cries were so loud they made it impossible for anyone else to sleep or even close their eyes without hearing them, ‘Don’t you have at least one nice memory?’

‘~These are some of my nicest ones.’ Dai An replied glumly as she used her sleeve to wipe the rotten flesh and faeces off the flowers further away from her.

The world Bing Shi saw had been completely destroyed-the ground was covered by bodies rotting beneath black ash. The air was filled with the stench of putrefaction, and then... She found herself trapped between an army led by men who thought nothing about slaughtering all living creatures except each other, ‘How is this nice?’

‘~I survived with my body intact; isn’t it nice enough?’

‘It’s not.’ Bing Shi kicked the trash together with the flowers far away from her, ‘Let me help you clean your place a bit.’

Kick. Kick. Kick. Bing Shi swept away the place around her before turning to another flower patch close to Dai An where she found fresh blooms growing happily without care or concern. It was hard for her to believe they were still alive when everything around them seemed dead.

‘~You are not cleaning it up but pilling it up.’

‘We can cover the piled-up mountain with the dug-up dirt later.’

‘~This is not how it works. Do you want to deal with everything at once or one at a time?’

‘Oh duck.’ Bing Shi began to wipe two flowers at a time with her sleeves, ‘Mine doesn’t come off.” She glanced at Dai An’s progress, “Woah, you are amazing. How are you doing it?’

Dai An could feel Bing Shi’s presence inside their shared consciousness like the sound or taste of water bubbling up through stone, ‘~I’m purifying the soil. The wiping is just a gimmick.’

“...” Bing Shi stared at Dai An for several seconds before they both burst into laughter, “I can’t believe you turned me into a fool!”

Bing Shi didn’t stay in Dai An’s ‘home’ for long. She was interrupted by a vision of her husband, walking toward her with his arms open wide. He looked like he wanted to embrace her but something held him back. His face contorted in anguish as he struggled to contain the feelings inside himself, ‘Dai An, I have to go now! Thanks and bye!’

‘~You are welcome. Bye Bye.’

Bing Shi felt her mind was being torn into two parts as she tumbled onto the ground and twitched violently until she stopped moving.

She opened her eyes to find herself laying next to the bed of her bedroom, staring at the man above her while trying to hold back tears. The sun was setting behind the windows and cast its light upon the side of his face. He was sitting on the edge of the bed ramrod straight without uttering a sound yet.

“You’re back,” He said softly with his hand resting on her forehead.

Levitating in midair, Bing Shi tried to speak but no words came out. Instead, she moved her lips slightly to form silent sounds, “...”

He leaned over to look at her mouth. “What did you say?”

“I’m-” Bing Shi pointed at her throat, telling him to take his emotions under control.

He placed his thumb against her neck and pressed down gently, unclogging her throat, “Why do you make these noises? Are you saying something?”

Her heart beat rapidly and her breath became shallow as if she was running fast, “...sorry,” she repeated.

“Good girl,” he didn’t say it was alright because it wasn’t, “Now, tell me what happened.”

Bing Shi blinked her eyes to shake off the hallucinations. She saw herself in front of a large crowd of people instead of a single man, “I allowed someone else to hurt me again.”

“And why would you allow them to hurt you?”

“Because I am stupid.”

“...is that so?”

She nodded.

He ran his fingers through her hair and scratched lightly behind her ears, “Are you sure you didn’t mean to hurt someone else instead?”

She tilted her head back and nuzzled her nose into the palm of his hand. The softness of his skin made her melt into his embrace. His scent filled her nostrils and made her feel safe, “I wanted everyone to disappear the more Julliet interacted with me, then Dai An appeared and I wanted world peace again. Does it count?”

“You held back good to only sacrifice a pinky.” His hand cupped the back of her head and pulled her in closer. His thumb brushed against the back of her neck and then slid down between her shoulder blades. His fingers curled around her waist and lifted her up until her knees touched the bottom of the mattress. He pushed her forward until she fell on top of him, “Should I lock you up in an isolated room for a while?”

“Please do.”