Pay With Your Heart

505 Waited Enough

Lost one of their kids?

‘They had lost one of their—’ Eun-sun trailed off on her thoughts as she realized what he was trying to say.

She had lost one of her babies? That meant she had what, two? Two babies?

Eun-sun blankly stared at Dan-Han, with her lashes blinking accordantly. She was transfixed with shock.

Dan-Han observed how dumbfounded she had become by the news, and he cussed himself for not being careful with his words.

He had thought about not telling her since she hadn’t even been aware she was pregnant, but he concluded that would be unfair to her.

It was already unfair to her that she had to keep going through so much just to acquire one of the most basic things people tend to have in life, happiness.

He wanted her to be happy because if anyone deserved so much of it in this life, it was Eun-sun.

Life keeps taking from her despite all her effort to stay on her feet.

.....

Though he hated losing the baby, he hated how they had lost it and what the knowledge of it would do to her.

“Babe...” He called when she kept staring so blankly.

Eun-sun’s lips trembled as she tried to speak. “The baby...it’s...it’s gone?” She stutteringly asked, but Dan-Han could already hear the pain behind her words.

He took a step forward and closed the space between them. He took her hand in his while she kept her gaze, now gleaming with mist, fixed on him.

“I’m sorry.” He apologized. Not only for the baby they lost but also for his failure to protect her and his kids.

“Eun-sun, I...” His lips burned for words, but his chest was tightly squeezing in. There was pain somewhere behind his chest, which was aching him so badly.

“I’m sorry I couldn’t keep you safe.” He said as a tear fell down his eye.

There were so many things he could deal with, but this wasn’t one of them.

If only he had kept an eye on Yong-Gun. If he had seen to his end before returning to Country C, then maybe his child would still be here, and Eun-sun wouldn’t have had to deal with all she’s been through.

She wouldn’t be bearing the loss of a child she has always wanted to carry.

Nothing was as painful as losing a child due to one’s recklessness.

He had been overly confident, and that had led to him being reckless. Eun-sun would not have offered herself to lure the enemy if he had done his job.

Seeing a tear roll down Dan-Han’s cheek, Eun-sun’s tears couldn’t help but fall, too.

She might not have known she was pregnant. As a matter of fact, she hadn’t suspected it all, but knowing she had lost a child, the feeling, made her heart ache.

It was a child made out of their love for one another. It could have been her little princess or prince who might have looked just like Dan-Han.

“Come here,” She tearfully beckoned to him, and he sat beside her. He pulled her into his arms where he comforted her, or rather where they both comforted one another.

He rested his chin above her head as he carefully hugged her.

“I hope you forgive me, Eun-sun.” He said above her head. “I hope you can forgive me for not being there for you when you needed me the most.”

“I know I’ve made many promises to keep you safe and to always make you happy, but I...”

“Don’t say another word,” Eun-sun said against his chest, stopping him from muttering another word.

She pulled away, and Dan-Han reluctantly loosened his hold around her. He looked at her face as she stared right back at his.

“You’ve made me happy, Dan-Han, more than I could ever imagine.” She told him.

“You protected me more than anyone in this world ever could, so I can never be angry at you. Yes, I lost one of the babies, but it was your child too. It was supposed to be ours. So I can’t ever be angry with you about it.

“Yes, It’s painful, but we have each other, right? And didn’t you say we have one more?” She asked, and he tersely nodded.

“Then let’s have this.” She said. “Let’s fight for it and protect it together. Let’s give it all the love we have and raise he/she with all our hearts, okay?” She told him, and he slowly nodded.

Dan-Han silently peered at her before shifting his eyes to her very flat tummy.

Eun-sun reached for his hand and placed it on her stomach.

“We still have him.” She told him, leading Dan-Han’s hand to move across her stomach till he did so on his own.

Her eyes glimmered with tears, but she tried to hold them back, not just for him but also for the baby they were about to have.

It would be impossible to forget that she had lost a baby even before she knew of its existence, but she had to do well because there was still another one on its way.

Dan-Han hugged and pulled her closer as another tear fell from his eyes. “I love you, Eun-sun.” He muttered against her ears.

He loved her so deeply and with all his heart.

Eun-Sun strained her neck and placed it on his shoulder as she hugged him. “I love you, Dan-Han. More than you can ever know.” Even more than her life.

She’d give up anything for him.

Dan-Han tightened his hold around her. “Thank you.” He whispered into her ear. “Thank you for loving me, and giving me this gift, our baby.”

Eun-sun slowly pulled away. She cupped his face and pressed her forehead against his.

“It’s our gift to us. You and I.”

Dan-Han pressed forward and kissed her lips. “Our gift.” He muttered, and Eun-sun nodded and kissed him back.

Dan-Han pulled her back into his embrace. He hugged her tighter than before, but he was careful enough not to squeeze her.

“You should lie down.” He told her when remembered she wasn’t supposed to be moving about till the doctor said otherwise.

“Would you lie with me?” She asked, and he promptly nodded.

He kicked off his shoes and laid beside her. He guided her head to lie on his chest, and she wrapped her an arm around him.

It’s been so long since she laid in his embrace like she did now. The last time she held him so close was the morning he returned to country C.

Dan-Han slipped his hand into his pocket and brought out the blue velvet box she had given him a few days ago.

“Why do you have this here?” She inquired. She was surprised to him with it there.

Dan-Han flipped the box open, and pulled out the ring.

Eun-sun stared at the ring in his hand as she wondered what he wanted to do. He hadn’t actually rejected her proposal, but he had chosen to delay it, so why did he have it here.

Well, she got her answer, when he stretched the ring to her. “Here. Put it on me.” He said.

Eun-sun blinked, slightly taken aback by his request. Was he accepting it now?

She took the ring and Dan-Han pulled his left arm from underneath her head. He stretched his hand to her, but Eun-sun hesitated and looked at him.

“Is this because of the baby? I thought you wanted to wait.”

“I don’t want to wait any longer. I think we’ll both agree that we’ve waited enough. Let’s get married, and start our forever together.” He told her, but Eun-sun still kept a skeptical look on him.

Dan-Han brushed his hand through her hair, while he locked eyes with her. “I don’t want to spend another day without you at my side...you and this baby. I’ve the rest of my life to impress you, and I intend doing so till you’re never tired of me, and you can’t help but love me anew everyday.”

“I already do.”

“Then let’s do more. Let’s spend everyday making you happy. That’s all I want.”

And that’s what she wanted too. Everyday being happy and making him happy.

Her eyes warmed up as she looked at his awaiting hand. She sniffled and held back the tears as slipped the ring into his ring finger.

She looked at it, and then at him.

She couldn’t believe he was wearing her ring. That he was all hers.

Dan-Han slipped his hand below her neck and pulled her closer.

“Don’t think about anything else henceforth. We’ll be fine.” He told her and she nodded.

He kissed her forehead and she snuggled closer.

“Do I also get a ring?” She asked, wondering if he was still going to give her a ring as he had intended to.

“Yes, one befitting of you. My queen.” He replied, and pecked her forehead again.

“Yes, one befitting of you. My queen.” He replied, and pecked her forehead again.