Loving Madeline

Madeline's POV

After crying for so long, I fell asleep, and when I wake up, my eyes are swollen, and my heart is still hurting. I got up from bed and took a shower. Then after getting dress in my favorite skinny jeans and BB T-shirt, I slip in my doll shoes. I get my purse and my phone, and I get out of my room to eat my breakfast in the hotel's restaurant. And when I looked on the screen of my mobile phone, I realized I have so many missed calls from my husband. I felt so happy and sad at the same time. But I am just glad that I didn't answer his calls because I am afraid of what I will say to him. And I think I still need space before I can face Hunter again.

I need to be vital to face Hunter with my head high, and I should make sure that I will not be crying in front of him because I don't want my husband to pity me. I used to be strong because of what I have been through in my life, but falling in love with my husband makes me so vulnerable, and I hate myself that I became this weak. I seldom cry over my problems before because I thought I would become more pitiful if I make myself cry. After all, for me, tears are a sign of weakness, and I don't need anyone's pity.

But I allow Hunter to be in my life, and I became dependent on him after our marriage. And this time, I need to be the Madeline I used to be, and I should never cry again, no matter how much I am hurting inside. Enough for the tears because I need to look for a house and find a job. 

I felt glad that only a few guests are dining early in the morning, and I can tell some of them have an early flight. I don't have an appetite to eat, but I know I need to eat to have some energy to keep going today. I believe when you are broken-hearted, you should think about your health because the one who hurt you might have a sumptuous meal and enjoying his life while you were sulking and feeling so down because you felt like you are carrying the world on your shoulders.

But I don't think my husband is enjoying himself right now because I know Hunter's personality. Even if he seemed cold and distant from everyone and the kind of person you think owns the world. Still, beyond his facade, I know he has a good heart, and I can tell because he is a good son. Even if his father is cruel and selfish, he only hit his father once when he learned what his father had done towards Rebecca, but after that, he still looked up to him as his father. He is the most kind-hearted and forgiving person I know, yet he still hurt me, and I don't want Hunter to suffer because what he had done to me was enough to make me feel grateful. 

He helped my aunt and me. And he made me experienced how wonderful it is to be loved by him. And if ever I am going to be given a chance to be born again, I will choose the same life because I never regretted having Hunter Divenson as my husband. If I can only have it on my way, I would like to be with him forever and to sleep every night beside him and be wrapped in his loving arms. However, I know it would be impossible because he is still in love with Rebecca, and I can't blame him because Rebecca came ahead of me.

"How would you like your egg, mom?" The chef at the egg station asked me, and it was the only time I focus on the empty plate I have in my hand because I felt like I am so lost circling the buffet station without picking anything. And I smiled at him and told him I want an egg fillet for my egg. And I stopped myself from thinking about my husband even for a while even though I know I can't stop thinking about him, but I need to if I want to move on with my life. 

I concentrated on picking food for my breakfast as I get some bacon, ham, and bread, and I get some butter and jam. I sat at my table, and the waiter asked me what do I want for my drink. I asked him to served me coffee since I want to start my day alive and kicking. I get up, and I get some slices of papaya and pineapple. I noticed the restaurant is beginning to be crowded, and I can see men are looking in my direction, and some of them are smiling at me. Still, I ignored them and continue eating my food while I search on the internet on my smartphone for a house for rent or a condominium unit for sale.

I felt relieved that there are so many options that I can choose, but I need to see it first in actuality before I will decide what I want because I know there are a lot of things that are only good to look at in pictures, but you will not be satisfied once you will see them in person. I contacted the numbers, and I was able to talk to five agents. And they are all available this morning, and I couldn't stop myself from being so excited. And living near the outskirts of the city of Archois would be my first choice because I am sure I am away from Hunter and his family, and starting a fresh start is the best thing for me.

I spend my entire day and the next two days house hunting, and on the third day, I felt so delighted that I was able to find a place that suits my preference; it is a lovely two-bedroom house, and I felt so excited to move in right away, but I need to understand that we need to process the deed of sale and other documents. After three more days, everything was set, and I moved in immediately. The next thing I bought was a car.

I know having Hunter's money gives me the convenience to purchase anything I need, and right now, I have to start a new life, and I also need to buy new things I need living in a house alone. I felt so lonely, and I can still feel the pain every day, but I tried my best never to cry again over my husband. Knowing that he is happy is enough for me because I love him so much that I am willing to give him his freedom.

I went shopping with Gina, and we bought furniture and fixtures needed in my cute bungalow. We celebrate my new beginning with wine and food after I got everything settled, and it made me feel satisfied. The white leather couch made my living room looked elegant and cozy.

"Wow! I am so happy for you, Madeline, and I wish I could have something like this in the future." Gina said as she looked around my new place, and she is beaming the entire time.

"Of course you can. After you graduate from college and you can find a job, you can buy more extensive than this house." I replied.

"I don't need a big house. I want something like this, and this is not also a tiny house. You have a two-bedroom house, Maddie, and this is something we should celebrate." She said as she poured some wine on the wine glass.

"Yeah, and I could never buy something like this if not because of my husband. It feels like he still owns this place." I replied.

"Madeline, that is your money since he gave that amount to you, and you didn't spend it on other material things like cosmetics and others. You never go to a fancy bar; you were always in your house since you married him, you play your role as the best housewife you can be. And you don't need to feel guilty about anything. And I don't want to judge Hunter since he has been a good husband to you, and I can tell he is in love with you, Madeline, and I saw it with my own eyes how much he cares for you." Gina declared.

"I don't understand why something like this happened now when you are ready to conceive his child. Maybe something transpired that we don't know, and I think you should talk with your husband, Maddie. I understand he hurt you so much, and I am angry with him too, but I don't think Hunter will walk out of your life without telling you anything. We don't know if he is also suffering right now that you were gone. Cerila called and informed me your husband got so drunk when he found out you left your house." Gina added.

"I know the reason why Hunter got drunk, Gina. He felt guilty about what he had done to me, and maybe he already found out that I already know that truth. But don't worry, he didn't look after me, and it only means one thing, he already accepted the fact that I am out of his life. Don't worry because I am going to call Calixto right now." I said, and her face saddened.

"Don't say that Madeline, I am sure he was worried where you are right now." She responded.

"Gina, I should live in reality and face the fact that Hunter can never be mine, and I know I need to meet my husband the soonest possible time." I said, and I can tell Gina is a little surprised why do I need to show myself to my husband when I tried to hide away from him, but I know I have to talk with him and tell him how he made me feel, and I will tell him what I want to ask from him. I fished out my phone from my pocket, and I can feel my hands are trembling as I dialed Calixto's number, and I felt restless as I waited for him to answer my call.