Love History Caused By Willful Negligence

Vol. 2 Chapter 30: 30

Translated by Chef

Edited by Chef

Inseop took off his sweaty clothes, put them in the washing machine, and took a shower.

He was supposed to come back after lunch, but the cat tower Yoon Areum’s father had ordered arrived just as he was about to leave so he stayed to help assemble it. After he finished assembling, it was time for dinner, and eventually he had to eat dinner before he could leave the house.

Inseop wiped his hair with a towel and picked up his phone.

He also had no contact from Lee Wooyeon. While playing with the cat at Yoon Ahreum’s house, he checked from time to time, but he had not responded.

[Call me when you get home. I’ll wait.]

After sending the text, Inseop checked the time. He still had a couple of more hours to finish his schedule.

Inseop searched Lee Wooyeon’s name on his portal site. Articles of new content did not stand out.

“Thank god.”

It seemed that what Kang Youngmo said at that time was just a passing word. Still, it was better to be careful for the time being. It might have been better to be away from Lee Wooyeon for a few days. Even though that’s what his mind said, his heart did not feel the same.

Yoon Ahreum said that she would keep Lois and the kittens for about a month in her home, and then she would find owners for them. After John was discharged from the hospital, he said he would decide after seeing her condition. The situation couldn’t have been better for the cats. However, Inseop could not shake off the regret that he had not contacted Lee Wooyeon first that day.

Suddenly, he remembered what Lee Wooyeon had said to him. Did he say that such a happy ending will never come?

“What happy ending…”

Inseop muttered weakly and laid down on the bed with his phone beside him. It was a strange feeling. Before he went to sleep, he always thought of the faces of his parents and family members, but now all he could think of was Lee Wooyeon. He laughed out loud. He wanted to meet more people who he can go see right away than people from across the sea.

“I’m sorry.”

Inseop closed his eyes after offering a heartfelt apology to his parents.

How long has it been? Inseop suddenly opened his eyes at the sound of the phone ringing. It was dark all around. Inseop fumbled with his hand to find his cell phone. Lee Wooyeon’s name appeared on the phone screen. His fatigue was gone. Inseop quickly answered the phone.

“Hello.”

<Were you sleeping?>

“Yes. I slept a little.”

<You must have been sleeping well. I shouldn’t have called.>

“No. It’s okay…I fell asleep while waiting for your call.”

Inseop quickly grabbed the phone and shook his head. Hearing Lee Wooyeon’s voice after two days was so good that it brought him to tears.

“Are you done with your work?”

<I’m in front of my house.>

“Did everything go well today?””

He was worried that something would happen to him because he was not always there.

<Is there anything special? What did Inseop do today?>

Lee Wooyeon asked playfully. Even as he was relieved by his usual tone of voice, his pulse went numb.

“I went to the animal hospital in the morning and went to see the cat in the afternoon.”

<That would have been nice. You saw dogs and cats. You will have met all the things you like.>

“…yes”

However, when he was unable to say that he hadn’t seen the person he liked the most, Inseop bit his lower lip. He had something to say first.

“Wooyeon.”

At Inseop’s call, Lee Wooyeon gave a short laugh.

<Why do you call me like that? You’re making me excited.>

The hand holding the phone started to sweat. Inseop held his heart and slowly conveyed what he wanted to say.

“I’m very clumsy. It’s my first time dating… I don’t know what to do. I’m sorry.”

He apologized to Lee Wooyeon.? It kept bothering him. He couldn’t shake the thought that the best he had chosen excluded Lee Wooyeon.

“I’m really sorry. I know you’re upset. I know I don’t know what to do. If you can ease your mind, I will do whatever Mr. Wooyeon wants. I’ll do it no matter what.”

.

Inseop spat out the words of apology that had been on his mind for the past two days.

He didn’t know if these words could solve Lee Wooyeon’s anger, but it was an honest feeling.

He wanted to do something for him.

<…….>

There was silence.

Inseop anxiously waited for Wooyeon’s answer. Eventually, he spoke up.

<I’m not angry. Sorry for not contacting you yesterday. I was just trying to organize my thoughts.>

Inseop was relieved and his tears welled up.

“I’m glad you’re not angry,”

Inseop continued as calmly as possible.

“Then, can I go out again tomorrow?”

<Why would you come out?

“But…”

<You’re taking a few days off. Don’t be stubborn.>

Inseop nodded his head and replied, “I understand.” Tears trickled down his cheeks. He thought it was good that he was on the phone. He didn’t get caught crying like an idiot.

<How are the cats?>

“Good. Thanks to you.”

Inseop quickly wiped away his tears and answered.

<What did I do?>

“You called the hospital. Thank you.”

Lee Wooyeon said he didn’t care about the cat’s well-being, even as much as his nails, but he deliberately took the time to call.

<How do you even say thank you for that?>

“No. Thank you. I’m serious.”

He heard Lee Wooyeon let out a small sigh. Inseop became very nervous, wondering if he had made another mistake.

<Don’t you want to see me?>

To the sudden question, Inseop asked. “What?”

<Don’t you want to see me?>

“Of course… I miss you.”

<Then should I go up now?>

Inseop checked his watch. It was well past one o’clock in the morning.

“…No. It’s fine.”

Tomorrow’s schedule started in the morning. Before that, he had to get up at 6 a.m. to stop by the shop. He didn’t want Lee Wooyeon to overdo things.

“It’s late, so hurry up and go to sleep. You must be tired.”

<I should be. Hurry up and sleep, Inseop. I’ll call you back tomorrow.>

Inseop was more relieved to hear that he could talk on the phone tomorrow.

“Good night.”

After the call, Inseop laid down again. Then, suddenly a thought ran through his head, he ran to the window and opened the window. He looked outside, but he couldn’t see anyone passing by, let alone a vehicle, in the alley.

He was sure he said he was going home…

Inseop raised his head. It was a useless thought. There was no way that he would come to his house at this time and go back.

Inseop slowly closed the window.

As he turned the steering wheel, Lee Wooyeon spat out a low curse. He almost got out of the car and went up to Inseop’s house.

When he saw Inseop covered in blood at the veterinary hospital, he remembered the time when he had seen him with a knife stab on his stomach. It was a scene that he had barely shoved to the back of his mind. His broken head played the same scene endlessly. A forgotten anxiety ran through his head.

He almost lost Inseop forever. He was well aware of how the anxiety that drew out of a sense of loss engulfed him. He couldn’t sleep or breathe.

It was like that the day he thought Inseop ran away, leaving him behind. He grabbed him and forcibly raped him, who had refused him. He couldn’t control it.

It was then that for the first time he felt the fear of himself losing control.

He didn’t want to treat Choi Inseop that way. No, he didn’t want to show Inseop his broken, raw self anymore. He told Inseop not to come out to cool his head for a while. But it was to no avail. Instead of cooling his head, his thoughts gradually tumbled into a mess. The desire to protect Inseop safely and the violent desire were mixed. Later he got to the point where he didn’t know what he wanted.

Eventually, on that day, he finished his schedule and drank enough to not die. He might have drank until he died if CEO Kim, whom he liked, hadn’t ripped it off of him. He went to Inseop’s house in a drunken state. He couldn’t even remember what he said.

When he woke up at dawn, he was afraid that he might not have overcome his greed and hurt Inseop. Fortunately, Inseop was asleep next to him.

He looked at Inseop, who was sleeping crumpled like a rag with a face that looked like he hadn’t eaten for days. Even in his sleep, Inseop seemed to be having a bad dream, frowning. It was terrible to see himself in heat like a beast for that pitiful face. A cold shower cured the violent heat. After that,heI watched Inseop for a long time after he came out.

He scanned Inseop’s face in every nook and cranny. Long eyelashes, a round nose, slightly parted lips and teeth visible between them, hair under the ears, earlobes, and a small dot on the cheek. Everything was lovely Even the frizzy hair that reached his eyes. There was no corner that was not pretty.

He liked the person who was asleep in front of him. It was so good he couldn’t even describe it. He carefully reached out and touched Inseop’s cheek. His whole body tingled with the heat from his fingertips. Satisfaction and anxiety rose like fire at the same time.

It was confusing. His unknown emotions were entangled from the bottom and rose up to his throat. It felt like he was stepping on thinly frozen ice.

No matter how many times he confirmed Inseop’s safety and existence, the anxiety did not go away. As usual, he tried to deftly capture those black feelings, but he couldn’t control it.

He closed his eyes for a while and opened them.

Does he want him to send him to America?

Or shall he break his leg and take him where no one else can reach and lock him up?

He was standing in the middle of an extreme thought? that a normal person would never understand. It seemed as if one wrong step would drown him in cold, deep water.

‘You’ve been trying to balance yourself between willful intentions, right?’

He remembered the eyes that looked up without any doubt at the other person who hurt him several times.

He prepared breakfast while Inseop woke up and took a shower. He wanted to eat anything. In the meantime, the moment he saw the dried apple in Inseop’s refrigerator, he became angry. It reminded him of Manager Cha’s words that if Inseop is left with the same personality, he will end up becoming skinny.

The dog he raised received normal and proper love from the gardener and became plump and lived a happy life. It was a happy ending. However, such a happy ending will not come to Inseop. Because he will pour out on him only twisted, abnormal, and wrong love, not right and ordinary love. He didn’t know how to continue a normal relationship. Still, for Choi Inseop’s sake, he had to imitate him somehow.

That afternoon, he called CEO Kim and asked him to find a road manager. That was the most humane way he could think of.

He knew where Choi Inseop’s anxiety was coming from. He was terrified that he would damage actor Lee Wooyeon’s life. If he was a proper human being, he would have found a way to nip that anxiety in the bud.

But he never thought of quitting his acting career. Inseop said several times that he likes Lee Wooyeon as an actor.

He was afraid.

When he abandoned his image as an actor and stood naked, he wasn’t sure if he would like him even then.

Only then did Lee Wooyeon realize what the shabby winged robe he was holding onto. That was all.

‘If I can ease your mind, I will do whatever Mr. Wooyeon wants. I’ll do it anyway’

The moment he heard the affectionate apology for the other person, vulgar desire was infested in him. He wanted to shove his cock into Inseop’s candid lips, apologizing for his poor ways, and make him swallow his cum until his stomach swells. That was his own deficiency. A dirty deficiency that wants to fuck even the other person’s pure goodwill and goodwill.

“..Fuck”

Lee Wooyeon stepped on the accelerator.

A shrill horn beeps behind him.