Imperfect Desires

735 A Part Of Her

The instruction she received was to stay close to Xiu and not leave for even a minute. And Xin Zimen had even stressed to not leave under any circumstances. But she actually went against her orders. In her impulsive state, she actually left Xiu's side and let something like this happen.

"How are you feeling?" he asked.

"I won't die," she replied.

"That's good," was his response. He could practically read her every thought right now and it distressed him even more. "Soldiers don't lower their heads before others."

Ying fisted the sheets under her, "But it was my negligence that brought this calamity."

"Officer Yan, you did your job... Stop blaming yourself. That does no good for people in our field of work."

She was silent for a while before asking, "Who do you think is behind this attack?"

"It's definitely not Suyin's style of doing things," replied Xin Zimen. "She isn't this impatient. She likes to plan her actions in detail and manipulation has been her strong suit. So, this is definitely not her doing."

"Then who else can be behind this? Who else can benefit from Xiu's death?" questioned Ying.

"That was a million-dollar question. Now, it seems like a billion-dollar question."

"Zizi! If they can attack her while she is in the hospital, they must be impatient to get rid of her."

"Yes, they are. After all, once I took her home, no one can touch her. This was their last opportunity and they wanted to play do or die. And they did play it."

Ying looked at him with a complex look, "Do you think it's the same person behind Aunt's death?"

Xin Zimen's face hardened but he didn't show any other emotions on his face. Then he shook his head, "This is someone immature. Someone very eager to do this job." He took a brief pause before adding, "I can't narrow down the enemies this time around. Xiu's identity was revealed in a very high profile way. There is no way the news didn't get out that the Xin family's head has a daughter. Now, the list of enemies just got complicated."

Ying had to agree with that. They couldn't point their finger at anyone.

Just then Su Feifei also entered and informed, "We found the identities of the attackers. They are just mercenaries who received the mission from the black web. They are just a part of a small faction. It's just that they were too smart!"

"She'll get better, right?" Ying asked uncertainly and cautiously. historical

Xin Zimen had difficulty saying it but he still said, "She will be. She has to be fine."

As he was about to leave with Su Feifei, he heard Ying's voice, "You are not gonna suspend me?"

Xin Zimen took a moment to turn around to face her.

"According to protocols, I disobeyed the orders of my superior. I was negligent and my negligence cost a disaster as well. Following the procedures, I should be suspended from my position."

Xin Zimen didn't reply to her but left silently. He walked towards Darren's room while Su Feifei reported him about other things. "Ying is right though. She should be suspended."

"We'll talk about that during the committee meeting. For now, let her recuperate. It's not like she can go to work for now."

Su Feifei wasn't convinced, "Are you purposely forgetting that she might really go to work tomorrow?"

"If I suspended her right now, her condition might worsen. You and I both know what her job means to her."

That remark shut Su Feifei up and she didn't dare to question anything else.

....

Meanwhile, Ying was still looking despondently at nothing in particular. Suddenly, her hand was held in a pair of warm ones and she looked up to meet the calmest eyes.

"It really wasn't your fault," said Han Bohai looking into her eyes.

Ying tried to smile at him, "You don't understand... Whether it was my fault or not, it doesn't change the fact that I failed. I told you once, I don't like losing. In my line of work, losing means someone's death." She suddenly laughed derisively, "In fact, in my line of work, even winning means someone's death. The only difference is, when it's my loss, someone close to me has to die."

Han Bohai held her hand tightly before sitting with her on the bed, "You know, my sister Xiu used to say that sometimes it's good to understand what your faults are. Because once you know where you went wrong, only then you can work on fixing it all. A person who has the courage to accept the failure is actually the real winner."

Ying sighed out, "You're still preaching your sister Xiu's words?"

He chuckled sadly, "I can't help it. For years, it's her words that kept me going." He hugged her from the side and placed his head against hers as he went on, "For some reason, today I'm missing her a lot. And that's why my heart is hurting. I feel like I'm gonna lose her all over again. But that's just a bizarre thought, how can I lose someone who died long ago?"

"Oh, didn't you say she is alive?" Han Bohai pulled away to look at her face in confusion. She placed her hand on his heart and went on, "Didn't you say as long as you remember her words, she'll live on?" Han Bohai's expressions shifted as she went on, "Isn't that why you always preach her words? You feel like by doing that you can keep a part of her in this world. Isn't that right?"

Han Bohai kissed the top of her head and hugged her tighter. "How many more times do you want me to fall in love with you?"