Her Cold-Hearted Alpha Chapter 121
Her Cold-Hearted Alpha Chapter 121
Devastation
KIARA
” | love you ... Amore ... ” His voice pierced m y heart . The sadness , regret and guilt in his eyes before they
closed . No ... This was not farewell ! Pain ripped throughand never had | felt such a level of hurt .
It was worse than seeing Alejandro and Jasmin together at the mating ceremony . My knees almost buckled
under the agony , my eyes on Alejandro as he ripped her heart apart .
” Baby no! ” | shrieked . No ! | can’t lose you ! No ! His howl of pure agony ripped through the air, and it was a
sound I'd never forget . | rushed towards him , falling to m y knees . ” Hold on ! ” | cried , pressing my hands to
his chest . | poured all my healing into him . My heart was thundering as I tried to listen to his heartbeat .
Nothing .
” Goddess no ! Please no ! ” | cried . My eyes were blurring with tears but I didn’t stop .
He had to heal ! He couldn’t die ! Why him ! No ... please no ... ” He's ... gone ... ” Someone whispered . | didn’t
even notice when everyone hadi gathered aroundor the fact that it was raining lightly . ” He isn't ! ” | cried
out.
He couldn't leave, | felt the weakening bond , but it was still there ... He's still here No one spoke , as Mom
wrapped her arms around me, lettingdo what | needed to SEE Please , Selene ... Please ... A broken sob left
my body as | rested my head on Alejandro’s chest . ” Please ... ” | whispered . ” You promised”
#+% A faint beat of a heart reached my ears and my heart leapt . He was still here ! | didn’t stop pouring my
healing into him , but the heartbeat remained faint .
Why wasn’t this working ? ” Alejandro ! Baby con ...
” Kiara ... You've healed what you can . ” Dad’s quiet voice c. H ” No ! It's not strong enough yet ... | kept
going . My entire body was screaming for a break but | couldn't . My vision blurred , but | couldn't stop . What if
he slipped away ?
The thought terrified m e . | couldn’t live without him . He couldn't just step into my life and then leave ! ” Kiara !
Think of the pup ! ” Mom pleaded , cupping my face and forcingto look at her . My heart pounded as the
truth hit.
| couldn’t help Alejandro ... Why ?! Wasn't this my gift ?! Why can’t | heal the one I loved ?! What kind of joke
was this ? | pulled away , refusing to stop , not relenting until | felt the strain wrapping around my stomach .
| stilled , | had used up everything | had ... but | couldn't risk the pup . If it wasn’t for my pup , I'd have drained
my entire life source for Alejandro . My tears spilt down my cheeks as | kept my hands on Alejandro’s chest .
His heartbeat was so faint ... ” You've healed him . The rest is up to him . Endora tried to take him with her, but
she didn’t succeed . Have faith , Kiara . Rafael’s hoarse voice c. 11 | looked up at him, seeing the pain in his
eyes .
” He'll be ok , Kiara ... We all know how stubborn Alejandro is . ” Dad said softly . | didn’t reply , looking at the
man before me, his body covered in dirt , blood and sweat . His handsface looked as if he was simply
asleep .
| cupped his jaw , leaning over and placed a deep kiss on his lips . Wake up , my king ... Please wake up ...
Nothing . | could barely feel him breathing . What was wrong ? Why wasn’t his heartbeat steadying ?
My mind was going through a vicious cycle of questions that had no answers . ” Kia ... ” Mom said softly . ” Let's
take him inside . ” Rafael said , gently . | didn’t want to move away . Mom pulled m e back and Rafael lifted his
brother .
| could barely stand , my energy was completely depleted . | reached out to Alejandro , don’t leave.... please
... My vision spun and | felt myself fall forward before darkness welcomed... TWO DAYS LATER ..
The devastating aftermath of a battle was never one of happiness ... We had won , yet | felt nothing but remorse
for our losses .
We had lost so many ... Uncle Aaron , Grandma Amy , Grandad , Aunty Indy , Daniel and his mate ... Valentin ...
Someone | had struggled to save, in the end , he still lost his life . So many had lost their mates , parents ,
siblings .
It hurt more than | could ever put into words . Everyone was affected , one way or another . Two days had gone
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇtby , yet my king never awoke . His heartbeat was fainter than an unborn pups ... | was unravelling .
Looking back , | felt like he knew there was a chance of this happening .
I had seen how he had shieldedfrom her right until the end , but he was not protecting himself ... At that last
moment when he had her heart in his hand ... The silent apology in his eyes , the pain and the guilt .
The man who said he was a monster , sacrificed everything for our kind . Why did you leave? The worst
thing was , | couldn't even let myself break .
An entire pack was looking a tfor guidance . For answers to why their king did not make it ? To know that it's
going to be ok . | looked towards the shining moon . Was this fair ? | felt as if | had failed everyone .... | had failed
my mate .
Every day | tried to heal him , but nothing . Callum had ca s well , but there was nothing . It was not magic .
We both had determined that ... But there seemed to be nothing we could do , a Whatever Endora had done in
her last moments by linking their hearts had all but destroyed Alejandro . Although | had been able to stop it
from completely killing him, it only put him in a deadlock .
It was as if | had simply frozen him on the brink of death . The bond was so weak | could barely feel it, and in its
place was a terrifying emptiness that was pullinginto its depths .
” Kiara , It’s tfor the farewell . ” Liam’s voice brokefrom my thoughts , and | turned towards him . His
eyes were filled with sadness , 1 nodded . We had burned our dead and tried to list everyone who was gone , but
not everyone was intact .
It had been hard to tell their families that there wasn’t even a body for them to look upon . Many Alphas had
taken their dead and moved on , but The Black Storm , The Blood Moon and The Night Walker Pack remained .
We were combining our farewells , those who had lost mates and family had all joined us here . Liam took my
hand and ledfrom the room . | saw Grandma Jessica standing there and it hurt to see that she was losing it .
The loss of her mate and daughter had hit her so hard .
She also didn’t understand why Grandma Amy had not saved Aunty , not understanding when Mom told her the
baby was holding out thanks to something Grandma Amy had given to bothand Aunty beforehand .
This only triggered Grandma Jessica even more , to the point where she was blaming Grandma Amy for not
stopping us from joining the battle . But | understood , whatever Grandma Amy's gift was , it seemed she
couldn't really foretell it .
She always seemed to know things , but at the st, she never said much . We would never truly
understand the depths of Grandma Amy's past or her heritage .
But to, no matter how many people were disgusted that she had a witch heritage and that she had lived
amongst us , | would always remember her as that beacon of light who had always been here forand for my
mom .
The one with witty crass remarks and how she loved to tease all the men , a That was another thing that pained
us somewhat ,
Delsanra had given her life to relay the truth and Grandma Amy , maybe not a full witch , but she had some
lineage .
No one saw that, in fact ... the disapproval that mom agreed to carry a child transferred by magic had hit the
wrong way . It seems no matter what we accomplish , something else takes its place .
The negativity and stigma that Mom was facing shocked. Although she took it all and put people in their
place, it did not stop people from talking . ” We should go . ” Mom said to Grandma , who clung to her .
Dad was quiet too ... He had lost so many people he loved , including his best friend . Damon had stepped in as
Beta already , although he wasn’t showing his emotions at all .
| tried a little , but there was nothing I could do when | myself was crumbling from within . ” You're going to have
to speak for the Night Walkers Pack . ” Dad said to. | nodded , as he pulledinto his
arms and kissed my forehead .
” You got this ; he’s going to wake up . ” He said firmly , looking down at.
I nodded but said nothing , | had barely spoken unless | needed to give orders . Alejandro ... | looked at the
glittering ring o n my finger and my heart clenched . | need you , my king .
Ten minutes later , we were gathered in the open grounds , not far from where Endora had tried to resurrect the
dead witch . My mind flitted back to that night . | had felt the darkness she was resurrecting and | had channelled
my own power into destroying the remnants of the magic that remained within the earth .
| wondered if | hadn't focused on that , would Alejandro b e here now ? | had deviated from the plan .... But
something had told| needed to stop her from completing that ritual no matter what ... and | had succeeded .
I knew she had already made the link with the darkness , even if we killed her, | had a feeling it wouldn't have
been the end of her ... | was sure if Endora had gotten the third death , or even, she would have
accomplished her plan .
It had been close but we had won . But we had paid a price ... ” We've all lost someone close to us ; parents,
siblings , mates , children , friends , neighbours ... someone .
| understand your loss because | have lost many too . Each one of my wolves and those of our allies were like
brothers and sisters . We faced an enemy who had been planning for years , we won but at a great cost , one we
are all feeling . And our King ... was the one to deal the finishing blow , but at a price .
He is currently in a coma . ” ” A murmur rippled through the crowds , and while everyone knew something had
happened , no one knew what it was . Until now . ” Luna ! Can't you heal him ?! ”
Someone asked .
One of Alejandro’s warriors growled , but | raised my hand .
” | tried . ” | said quietly . ” But Endora did something before she died . | have faith that Alejandro will wake up
soon . Until then, let's pay our respects to those who have lost their lives . Let's work on supporting those who
need it, to show your emotions aren’t weakness , to feel isn’t wrong .
Be there for one another and let others in . I'm hurting too , for every loss that has happened , for my mate ,
your king Alejandro ... my grandfather Jackson , my great aunt Amelia , my aunt Indigo , Uncle Aaron ... and
everyone else who lost their lives ... It’s ok to let the world know how you feel . They say theals all wounds ,
but I think it doesn’t .
We just learn to live and accept what's happened . To cto terms with it , it won't be easy , ” but we will get
there ... ” | couldn't carry on .
The suffocating pain that threatened to consme overtookonce more , and | felt Raven's arms | wrap
around. She had wanted to fight , but her father had refused , and Dad had also said no one without a wolf
was to even try .
She had been so pro - active since everything had happened , helping Mom around the pack , telling Mom to
take breaks . Without Mom and Aunty Monica a t their best , Raven had stepped up and taken on the role that
the Luna or Beta female would usually do .
Rafael said a few words and | simply listened quietly .
The pain in my chest was growing , but for my pack , | had to hide it n o matter how much | told them that | was
ok . Everyone was suffering , and as queen , | couldn't afford to fall weak . | would not ruin my king's reputation ,
not when he had done everything for the werewolf kind *** Everyone fell silent as we remembered those we had
lost , joined as one as we howled into the night sky .
The pain and loss of our loved ones will never be forgotten ... ” Con guys , cheer up . ” Raven whispered .
The four of us were sitting near the river . They were drinking beer and | clutched a mug of hot chocolate .
It was long into the night , and everyone had retreated indoors after those who had gone for a run in
remembrance of those w e had lost had returned . But the four of us had cout here , and although it was
rainy and cold , it didn’t matter . Nothing was worse than the pain we felt inside .
” How the hell do you expect that to happen ? ” Damon asked quietly . ” How is Aunty ? ” | asked softly . ” She's
losing it , | don’t think she’s going t o make it if she continues like this . ” He sighed , ” Don’t say that ! Aunt Mo
is strong .
She'll ” Raven broke off and looked down . We had all seen her try to take her life earlier today . After that, Mom
refused to leave her alone . Grandma was deteriorating too . ” We can’t imagine what losing a mate feels like .
We can't just expect them to be o k . ” Liam said softly , pullinginto his arms . Silent tears trickled down my
cheeks . | hadn't wanted to cout here , | wanted to go to Alejandro .... | still did ... but Liam and Raven had
been adamant .
” No matter what , we're always here for one another, right ? ” Raven said softly . ” Guess so . ” Liam said . ”
The four of us have always and will always be friends , no matter what . ” Damon said , raising his beer can . ”
Always .
” | whispered , raising my mug as we clinked our drinks . Alejandro ... Please wake up . We sat there , trying to
make small talk , or just falling into silence and comforting one another , huddled together for warmth .
| stayed for an hour but the pain withinto go to him could no longer be satiated . | excused myself and
headed to the pack hospital . | was halfway there , using my powers to illuminate the path .
The leaves in the trees rustled and | felt a shiver rush down my spine . | wasn’t alone . | spun around , scanning
Follow on Novᴇl-Onlinᴇ.cᴏmthe area . ” I've cfor my reward . ” A quiet voice said from behind.
My heart thumped as | turned only to see Janaina standing in the shadows . | looked at her, feeling anger at the
st. If she had so easily gotten here now , why hadn't she helped us ?
” You could have helped us . ” | said quietly . How had she gotten past patrol ? Witches were indeed dangerous if
they wanted to b e . | understood people’s fears , but | still hoped that one day there would be peace between
our kind . ” I've told you before , | dislike your kind . ” She said , holding her hand out .
So she had cfor her necklace , | reached into my pocket and took it out . ” He removed it from her neck
before she died ... He fulfilled his promise . ” | said softly .
” So , He didn’t make it . ” She said , motioning forto throw it . I did , and she caught it . At one point | would
have wanted to know what was so important about that pendant ? But | no longer cared .
"” Can you not help ? ” | asked , trying not to pay attention to how unbothered she sounded . Despite the fact it
stung . ” There's nothing | can do, nor am | willing to .
This is the last twe shall meet , daughter of Selene . ” 18 | said nothing as she turned and vanished into the
woods . | looked at the passing buildings . Sstill had lights on, whilst others were completely dark .
Would anyone remember those that had lost their lives ? Would they remember a few months or years down the
line ? Was anyone worried about their king , who was known as ruthless and cold - hearted ?
Would anyone remember his sacrifice ? In the end , no one cared . | didn’t care if | sounded bitter . It hurt . |
continued on my way , my heart shattering a little more . With each step , it felt harder to breathe .
| broke into a run, rushing through the hospital halls until | pulled open his door . Rayhan jumped , he had
seemingly been dosing off in the armchair . ” Sorry . ” | whispered . He shook his head , givinga small sad
smirk . ” Not at all ... no changes . ” He said ,
answering the question he knew I'd ask . For the last two days , Rafael and | have taken turns being here .
Rayhan had conly last night and was returning htomorrow . ” He'll get better . ” He said quietly . |
looked at him in the dim light , barely able to make out his eyes . ” | hope so . ” | whispered .
"| know the timing might not be the best , but congrats on the baby . ” He said , flashinga wink . ” Thank
you ... ” | said as | walked over to Alejandro , caressing his cheek .
The soft tingle was so faint that my heart ached , his skin was so cold ... ” I've been without cousins for ages and
now suddenly I'm getting two , Marcel’s kid and this one. ” a ” I guess so .
” A moment of awkward silence fell between us . ” I'll leave you to it ... ” He said , picking up his jacket and
heading to the door .
” Rayhan .” ” Yeah ? ” He stopped at the door . ” Delsanra . How did she die ? ” | whispered . Talking about
witches has becso taboo lately that | didn’t dare ask anyone else this . He sighed deeply .
” She jumped . She was under sspell . With every word she spoke , it was destroying her . She wouldn't
have survived either way , and the look in her eyes . | can’t get it out of my head ...
"I turned and looked at him . Clearly , he didn’t seem to hate the topic as much as most around here . ” Did you
try to stop her ? ” ” 1 did , | told her you could help . I told her that | knew someone but she said she has no one
and that it wasn’t worth living .
" H e looked down , | sensed the guilt and regret in him . ” 4 ” It’s not your fault. ” ” | try to tell myself that ... ”
He muttered .
Take care , Kia , he’s going to be ok . If anyone can make it out of that state , it's Uncle .
"I nodded , turning away as silent tears trickled down my cheek . Only taking a deep breath when the door shut
behind him . | looked down at my mate , my lips quivering . ” Wake up , my love .
"| whispered , bending down to kiss him deeply .
My warm lips met his cool ones , a soft tingle rushed through. Letting my healing pour into him , but once
again there was no change . | moved back , brushing my fingers through his hair as | slowly slid into the bed next
to him .
” We're waiting for you to wake up .and our little pup . ” | whispered , sliding m y arm under his head . | lay
there gazing at his face . The moon shone on him from outside , illuminating his handsface .
He looked like a work o f art as he simply lay there . | wouldn't give up , not now , not ever . He would wake up .
He had to wake up .
I needed him.