Fated To The Alpha (Ezra, Katya)

Fated To The Alpha by Jessica Hall Chapter 167

My hands go to his chest making my palms tingle and an overwhelming need to get closer to him rushes over me. I

am not sure if it is my emotions and needs or his when I feel his excitement against the inside of my leg making me

pull away and break the kiss.

I go to get off his lap but he holds me there and my heart rate picks up, fear starting to seep into me.

“It’s just my reaction to you being this close Sage, we have talked about this so many times, it doesn’t mean

anything more will happen” Andrei tells me.

“Please don’t back out Sage” Sierra whimpers in my head.

“Sage?” Andrei says, pulling my attention back to him. I relax letting out breath and I feel guilt smash into me from

him. I hated feeling his guilt every time I freaked out. He didn’t do this to me, he didn’t ruin me.

I shake my head, pressing my lips to his forcing the fear away and focusing on his feelings instead and ignoring my

own. Andrei groans, clutching me to him before pulling away, his lips travelling down my jaw and neck. Arousal

floods me from him, the feeling so foreign to me it took me a few seconds to figure out why between my legs was

pulsating with a need that scared me. He sucks the skin on my neck before running his tongue across the same

spot. A breathy moan escapes me and I jump when I feel his canines press against my skin.

He goes to pull away but I run my fingers through his hair knowing if he doesn’t I will chicken out and it will never

happen.

“ Sage, do you want this? You are really tense” he says, kissing my neck.

“Just do it please Andrei before I back out” I murmur waiting for the pain, my heart hammering in my chest so hard

I knew he could hear it.

“I can smell your fear, Sage” Andrei says before moving and turning around. He pressed me against the bed and

moved between my legs pressing his weight down on me.

“Nothing more Sage, just like training, you can tell me to stop, and I will stop. But I won’t mark you while you are

petrified of me. I won’t mark you just because your wolf and I want to and you feel obligated to, so if you don’t

want me to, tell me stop and I will” he says looking down at me.

My breathing was becoming heavier, tears blurring my vision as panic started to set in along with anger. I was

angry because I was so fucked up, a fucking disappointment and useless to the one person I am meant to be for.

“Shh Sage breathe, what do you want?” Andrei asks and I snap at him, my anger at myself bubbling over and

leaving my lips.

“To be fucking normal, I want to be normal and not used goods. I don’t want to be scared to want you, I don’t want

to fear you but I will never be normal and you deserve better than some broken toy everyone has used up” My

words spit out in an angry rush.

I swallow my anger receding and I let out a breath, shame hitting me, yet Andrei doesn’t say anything a t my

sudden outburst, just presses his head against my collarbone, my chest rising and falling rapidly as I try to catch my

breath..

Why was shame one of the most horrid things to live with. You know in your head that what happened was wrong

and mentally in a sense you know it wasn’t your fault, but why do I feel ashamed? Why am I the one that feels dirty,

disgusted and why after everything and being free of them does it still have to haunt me. I am free now yet that

nagging voice still says not for long, even though I know they’re dead, know they can’t touch me yet they still

control my body, control my fear, control me.

“You fear pain because that’s all you know Sage, you fear not being good enough because that’s how you see

yourself, don’t think for one second I see you that way.” Andrei sighs.

“ If anything it’s the opposite. I have killed so many people, yet the Moon Goddess gave me you, trusted me with

you, I am the one not deserving of you. I am not a good man, I know that, you know that, my entire pack knows

that, so don’t ever say I deserve better than you, because I never should have been blessed with you, not after

everything I have done, so don’t tell me you aren’t good enough because you are so much more than I deserve”

Andrei says.

My brows pinch feeling the truth behind his words, he truly believed he didn’t deserve me and I chuckle. Here I was

thinking I wasn’t good enough and he would be repulsed by me while he felt the same, two people impossibly

messed up and the Moon Goddess put us both together. Weren’t our souls tortured enough, yet now she makes

sure we torture each other more.

“Care to share what’s so funny?” Andrei laughs, pulling away and looking down at me.

“Nothing, I was just thinking how impossible it all is”

“We don’t have to do it now, I can mark you when you aren’t so scared” Andrei says.

“I will always be scared Andrei whenever you’re close, you just need to ignore me and do it” I tell him, turning my

neck to him. I close my eyes waiting for him to mark me when I feel his lips press to my neck softly.

“Or I could show you, you don’t need to be” Andrei whispers, his lips trailing up my neck to my jaw.

“Tell me to stop Sage, tell me to stop and I will” he says, kissing my lips softly.

I answer his kiss, kissing him back, his hand trailing down my side before pushing under the shirt. My heart

pounding in my chest and goosebumps rise on my skin as his hot hand moves higher, pushing my shirt up with the

movement before he palms my breast. I gasp, pulling away when I feel his thumb brush over my nipple. My body

responded to his touch even though fear pulsated through every cell in my body.

Andrei pulls away sitting up on his knees between my legs as I watch him. Sierra shoving calming

memories into my head, showing me all the reasons I could trust him. I watch as he grips the hem of my shirt

before tugging on it wanting me to take it off. I hesitate a second before sitting up and letting him peel it off leaving

me n@ked beneath him.

“Do you trust me?” He asks, I gulp before nodding as he lowers himself back over me.

“Then trust me to touch you, trust that I will stop if you ask me to” Andrei whispers before kissing my shoulder.

His hands are roaming and exploring my body. His fingers teasing my nipple until it is a hardened peak. His lips

follow his hand as he nips and sucks my skin before he sucks my nipple in his mouth. His tongue flicks over it before

he moves to the other, hesitating and gauging my reaction.

I run my fingers through his hair and he growls before sucking the other one and sparks rush over m y skin, his

emotions calm against my frantic ones but I focus on his, focus on the feeling of his tongue on my skin instead of

what he is doing. Sparks rush moving everywhere he touches and a moan escapes me when I feel his hand move

to my hip making me tense.

Andrei pulls back, kissing my lips. His tongue delving between my lips softly and I pull him closer as his hand trails

up and down my thigh before moving to the inside of my leg. He moves so he is beside me leaning over me. I feel

his hand pull my leg up draping it over his and I still, going completely immobile when I feel his hand reach the apex

of my legs sitting on my thigh, yet not touching my forbidden area. The place I fear his touch most.

“ It’s just me Sage,” Andrei whispers against my lips before I feel his hand move away.

“Give me your hand?” he murmurs, making me open my eyes to stare at him. When I don’t he reaches over

grabbing my hand gently before kissing my fingers. I watch him when he suddenly sucks on three of my fingers, his

tongue swirling around them before he pulls them from his mouth.

He leans over kissing me before I feel his hand guide mine between my legs, his hand moving over mine when he

presses it between my legs. His hand on mine controls the movements as he runs m y own fingers through my folds

and I gasp when he rubs my fingers against my clit. His movements slow as he manipulates my hand to do what he

wants, rubbing my clit in circular motions and a shudder runs through me and I relax.

He was careful not to touch me, only using my hand as I felt my stomach swirling with nerves and anticipation as

my stomach tightened at the friction he was building. The sensation scared me and thrilled me, making me moan

softly. Andrei swallows my moans, kissing me when I pull my hand away, making Andrei stop.

My hand trembles as I move it over his before pushing his between my legs. Sparks rush over my skin, the feeling

almost too much and Andrei kisses me hard, my lips bruising as his hand moves taking the place of mine. I move

my hand to hair, running my fingers through it and pulling him closer when I feel his finger run down the seam of

my lips and I am shocked by the moisture building between my thighs.

I moved my hips against his hand, wanting to find out where the feeling ended. It felt like it was building up and I

wanted to find the peak of it.

Andrei kisses me, his mouth moving down before he sucks my nipple in his mouth, making my back arch as I

become lost to sensations he was creating. Andrei lifts himself up, pushing between my legs and settling between

them, his lips moving lower and I feel his tongue dip inside my belly button making me freeze wondering what the

hell he was doing. I sit up when he kisses my hip and thigh.

“Andrei?” I ask him when he moves his face between my legs giving him a full view of my scars and burns, how

destroyed my body is. Everything they did he now had a close up view of and I clench my eyes shut trying to force

the memories away.

“Open your eyes Sage, eyes on me, stay here with me” Andrei says and I feel him kiss the inside of my thigh. My

breath lodges in my throat as I watch him, my face heating seeing where he is when he runs his hands up my

thighs pulling them further apart, his lips trailing down my thigh before he kisses my womanhood.

I could feel his breath on my core as I waited to see what he would do when his grip on my thighs tightens and his

tongue runs a straight line from my ass to my clit. Sparks rushing everywhere, his tongue swirling around my clit

before he sucks it in his mouth and my head falls back.

“Oh god” I breathe as his mouth devours me, I feel him chuckle at my reaction to him before sucking harder. His

tongue tastes every inch of me and my arms give out underneath me as I collapse on the bed. My legs shake in his

strong grip as pleasure builds, his tongue relentless and I was climbing that peak again, climbing it faster and I

moved my hips against his mouth, writhing at the feeling he was giving me.

My breathing becomes laboured and my skin heats up, my nipples turning rock hard when I find the edge of the

peak. His tongue sending me over the edge and I fall into bliss. My core pulsates and I cry out as my body convulses

in ecstasy as it ripples through me in waves. The sensation was too much leaving me breathless as I sag back onto

the bed from the release. My entire body tingles and I felt paralyzed in a good way, my entire body relaxed.

Andrei moves up my body gripping my chin and plunging his tongue into my mouth. I moan softly tasting myself on

his tongue before he pulls back pecking my lips softly and I felt like dead weight as I lifted my hands to his chest,

running them down his sides when he rolls pulling me on top of him. I could feel his erection pressing against me

but he sits up leaning against the headboard with me straddling his lap.

His hands trail up my sides gently and I shiver at his touch, he smiles at my reaction. I could feel his excitement

through the bond but he didn’t ask for anything more and I could feel he was content with just laying here. I lean

forward and kiss him softly, his hand going into my hair as he deepens the kiss and he growls softly making me

chuckle and pull away, his hands move to my thighs as he rubs them watching me.

I pull my hair over my shoulder and I swallow my mouth feeling dry. “ I can wait Sage ” He tells me, his eyes trained

on my neck where his mark should lay.

“I don’t want you to” I tell him, lifting his hand to my neck. He runs his fingers tips along my shoulder before

cupping the back of my neck.

Longing fills me and I lean closer, kissing his lips softly before pulling away.

“I want you to mark me, Andrei. I want to be yours”

“I can’t take it back once it’s done” He says with a smile tugging at the corners of his lips.

“Good because I only want to belong to you” I tell him and his eyes flicker before he pulls me closer. I bare my neck

to him, my hands going to his shoulders before I run them down his chest. He presses his face into my neck,

inhaling my scent. A purr rumbling from his chest and he kisses my neck before running his tongue over it making

me moan and rub myself against him.

His canines press to my skin and he pauses running them over his marking spot and I press closer to him, his grip

tightening on me when I run my fingers through his hair before I feel his teeth puncture my flesh.

Hot pain radiating from his bite as his canines slipped into my neck. His emotions smashing into me as I feel the

bond forge, my senses being set on fire as pleasure replaces the pain and I feel the bond snap in place, feel a pull

ripping me toward him, promising me he is all I will ever want and need, telling me I am home and he is my safe

place, that he is mine and I am his.

He pulls his teeth from neck, running his tongue over my mark and I feel exhaustion creeping in when I feel

something warm and wet drip onto my shoulder and I pull back. Andrei’s shoulders sag as he takes a shuddering

breath and I pull his face up to look at me to find tears rolling down my face.

“What’s wrong?” I ask him.

“Nothing, I can just feel you and I wasn’t expecting you to feel like that,” he says, leaning his head back against the

headboard and closing his eyes.

“Like what?” I ask him.

“Like you truly want me, that you like that I am your mate” He breathes.

“You’re wrong” I tell him and he smiles, his eyes cracking open to look at me.

“Don’t feel like I am wrong, I can feel everything you feel now so I can’t be wrong, deny it all you want” he says.

“But you are wrong, I don’t like you Andrei.. I love you… I love being your mate…. I love that you are mine… just as

much as I know I will love being yours” I tell him when his lips crash against mine.

I chuckle at him letting him push me back on the bed. I laugh around his lips devouring mine before he pulls back

brushing his nose on mine before hopping off me. He tugs the blanket over us pulling me flush against his chest, his

fingers entwined with mine as he pulls me closer. “I love you more” he whispers and I shake my head but say

nothing, instead relaxing against him, loving the warmth of his skin pressed against mine, loving the safety I feel

within his arms.