Villain of my own novel

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"We'll talk later." I slammed the door behind me which was not intended.

BAM

'F**k! What was that for?' I glared at the door.

"How did she know?" I mumbled belligerently as I made my way to the Academy's training chamber.

Yes, I 'walked.' I knew they could hold their ground as I created them, and while granting them traits, I put in a lot of effort in creating those, thinking about when and where they'll need it and how they'll counter it, though I didn't put much effort in naming them. I definitely researched (played games, read other s, read books to find and understand big words, and created many new ones myself...) when creating those, but naming it was a different story, and my naming sense was on a whole other level... in a bad way.

"... Nobody in the human domain is aware of that, so how did she find out?" I tried to think of every possible scenario, but....

"She asked if I could use the power in my 'other form,' not if I could use it with my traits, but in my 'other form,' meaning she knows..." I mumbled in a daze as an unknown fury crept up my heart, speeding it up.

".... Should I kil...."

PATT

I stumbled to my right in a daze after slapping my right cheek with enough force to get my head back in the right direction.

'What the f**k am I even thinking???? It's not even such a big secret!!'

"Oww...." I rubbed my cheek and continued to walk.

"F**k! Me and my blabber mouth!" I slapped my mouth.

POP

"Oh!"

POP (3x)

"Aii, that's not it! Isha!" I got distracted by 'pop' sound my mouth made when I slapped it before re-reminding myself about the matter at hand.

"Ok."

'Thanks to the distraction, I have calmed down a bit.'

"Ok, take a deep breath! Inhale! Exhale! Che, I feel like I'm pregnant, goddammit!" I kept blabbering to distract my mind away, to stop thinking about how she found out and to stop myself from thinking things on a extreme level.

"F**k! Please! I hope that what I'm thinking isn't the case...." I looked down, mumbled and took a deep breath.

"Ok! Let's think properly!" I cupped my face between my hands.

"It's not like I wasn't aware! I knew she was... No, we were a bit strange! Something was off from the beginning! When we first met, I felt like I was meeting someone I hadn't seen and missed for a long time!"

"Let's start with all the strange things I feel, at least those that I'm aware of!" I exclaimed.

"First and foremost, something was off from the start! Second, I don't have a part my memories of who knows how long those are!" I started listing them one by one.

''Memories' are which I proclaimed about the 'blank memories' or the 'blank slate' in my mind.'

"Third, I long for her for unknown reasons! Fourth, when Isha is related, I hear my own voice, which I never thought nor spoke about! Fifth, she is somehow related to my condition, which her presence alleviates!"

"F**k! I wouldn't even have understood this many problems if I hadn't begun listing them!" I cursed myself for not even attempting to come to a conclusion.

"Sixth, I think my feelings are too over grown after only being in a re-relationship for a month..." I winced and stuttered at the word relationship because I realised there was nothing between us other than going out for food in the name of a 'date,' I didn't know anything about her, and I don't think she knows much about me either...

'I only invited her out for a treat because others were too annoying.... f**k! I'm the absolute worst! But I.... still didn't want to be apart from her.'

"Huuu!" I flushed at the revelation.

"I like her, don't I?" I muttered as I felt my face heat up, but my heart began to hurt with a sharp pang that only grew stronger with each beat.

"..... If she knew something, she should have talked to me about it." I furrowed my brows as I abruptly felt upset.

"Does she find me unreliable?" I mumbled and I understood that 'maybe' she did find me unreliable.

'Sixth, I think my feelings are too over grown after only being in a re-relationship for a month.....' my own words echoed in my head before making me feel like a hypocrite.

'Trust just doesn't grow so easily, huh....'

"..... She knows about my other form..... though I 'know' she doesn't have any ill intent..... that doesn't make me feel any better that she couldn't talk to me....."

"..... Even if she was aware of it, she would gain nothing from using me... But, given how she turned down the concept of me teaching her the 'Stat control' technique, I don't think there is anything else with me to offer to her other than that....." I found my own words heinous.

KRAT-KAT-TAKKRAT

A crackling sound of lightning jolted me awake from my trance. I raised my head to look for the source of the sound and discovered Vinny's 'devil' transformation at the end of the training chamber; he was the one who was using the black lightning skill which was aimed at Katharine.

Violet was tending Jiwoo with a broken left arm, Jiwoo had slumped down lifelessly in front of her, Katline was almost unharmed and was firing arrows at the 'Devil' in front of them, not knowing what would happen if even a bit more time passed.

'Can't they see that he is only fighting to buy time?' I thought, coldly.

KRAKATRAT-RAT-KATRAT

WHOOSH

He launched his black lightning charge, which had a massive amount of mana cruising through it. I stepped up with a sigh because Katharine could die if she takes the direct hit, and his attack wouldn't stop after killing her because it was 'chain' lightning.

I appeared next to Katharine, placed my left hand across her shoulders and raised my right hand to block the chain lightning.

"Frost Touch." I muttered.

My right palm glowed pale purple as the temperature on my palm dropped to the freezing point in an instant. The lightning charge was dragged towards my hand, altering his aim; as soon as the lightning made contact with my palm, the mana cruising through it turned cold.

"Frost Devil."

"Partial Devilization." I muttered and transformed my pinky finger, which turned light blue and transparent before the lightning dispersed forcibly, while the pinky turned the mana cruising through the lightning into mine before assimilating it.

"Huh?" 'Vinny Devil' looked at me in disbelief after the lightning dispersed.

"Are you alright?" I asked Katharine after ignoring him.

"Y-yes!?" Katharine answered with a flushed face.

'She must be angry because I intervened....'

"Okay then, continue." I said and walked towards Violet and Jiwoo to check on them.