I Should Have Just Died

Alyssa had no time to stand still. It was because the time she promised was only five years. Alyssa had to go through the process of reorganizing the system and naturally abolishing the monarchy.

Blood is thicker than water.

Those were the words Seidrick said to comfort Alyssa, but it was also a point she knew better than anyone else.

She is the bloodline of the previous kings.

She could be arrogant and selfish at any time.

Alyssa still thinks she should step down.

However, no matter what kind of heart she was working on her work, it had a slightly different trajectory of thinking from Dania.

No matter how important work is, Alyssa also had a life.

It’s not like Alyssa was only going to be working hard.

Dania committed disrespect and turned off all the lights that lit Alyssa’s office. The only light she had left was the light Dania was holding.

“Ah…!”

Alyssa, who had been burying her head in the papers, lifted her head.

“Ensuring adequate sleep time for humans is important for health. Even the royal doctor said that the king must get adequate sleep. This will boost your digestive system and help with other bodily functions as well. But now it’s already past midnight, so how can I just turn my back as a servant?”

Dania fired her words with a rapid-fire cannon. The eyes looking at Alyssa were strict.

“I, I just wanted to see this!”

Alyssa insisted and fluttered the papers. However, it did not work on Dania. As she clapped her hands, Alyssa’s loyalists stepped out. The handmaids surrounded her as if pressing from her sides. Alyssa was said to have gained a little bit of weight, but she’s still precariously skinny in others’ eyes.

Besides, didn’t the doctor verify that Alyssa’s physical strength wasn’t that good?

Alyssa has passed far the sleep hours set by the doctor, Dani, and the handmaids.

Alyssa smiled awkwardly and got her body up.

It was because, in this respect, Dania and the handmaids made no concessions. Alyssa declared her defeat.

“Okay…… ”

“Besides, the Duke is waiting for you.”

Alyssa rolled her eyes.

“Still……… ?”

The strange sense of tension, which she had forgotten about, rose to power again. The memory of her first kiss, which was too intense for her to forget, was glued to her skin.

Seidrick was sweet.

However, being sweet does not mean that they are not passionate.

Alyssa’s hiccuping lips and Seidrick that dug up between it were a formidable predator. Not one moment, he would let her go as if he would not let a breath away from Alyssa. He listened to her and told his own story, but he never let her go.

They breathed countless times, facing each other as if the sweat was soaking into each other.

She has been avoiding Seidrick by delaying her bedtime for the past few days, but it doesn’t seem like that’s going to happen anymore.

Noticing Alyssa’s slowing her pace, Dania hurried.

“The water is getting cold.”

Alyssa wept and nodded her head in despair.

It was already past 1 am by the time Alyssa came out of the bathroom, washing her body with the handmaidens, but Seidrick was not asleep.

“Seidrick…… ”

Alyssa, who blushed like an apple, called him. The door closed behind Alyssa’s back, standing in the doorway.

“You haven’t slept yet?”

Alyssa spoke her words as naturally as possible and moved her steps. Seidrick lifted his head to check on her and nodded his head.

“I was reading a book.”

Seidrick lifted the book and showed the title. Alyssa grabbed a glass of water from the table and sat on the sofa next to Seidrick.

Alyssa’s heart melted softly in the calm atmosphere that Seidrick created.

But,

“I was waiting for you too.”

It was too early to be relieved; Alyssa opened her eyes wide.

“I still have a lot of questions about Alyssa.”

Seidrick naturally lowered his head and stole Alyssa’s lips. Then, as if it wasn’t a big deal, Seidrick smiled as he leaned back.

“Today, I want to hear about this pen.”

In fact, it was because of the fountain pen Alyssa dropped in the bedroom that Seidrick couldn’t sleep. Alyssa would often drag her unfinished business into the bedroom, where she must have dropped the fountain pen.

But that was also something Seidrick was familiar with.

It must have been the day his father died.

The day he looked back at the girl who remained in the store while being held in the hands of a servant.

He thought they could meet one day again, but that day was buried in his memories. Seidrick raised the fountain pen.

“This…..”

Alyssa was handed a fountain pen.

It was the first gift she received from someone else.

She had learned from the boy that one could do a favor for no reason. How could Alyssa, who had never received a favor without a cause, ever forget the memory?

She had forgotten the boy’s appearance, but she could not ignore the atmosphere and warmth of that day.

“Can you tell me about this fountain pen? Then I’ll tell you a similar story.”

Seidrick placed his hand on the back of Alyssa’s hand.

“…… It’s a gift I got. When I was very young…….”

Alyssa caught her breath and started talking.

***

“Is there any good news?”

The handmaid asked Dania in a skeptical voice. Alyssa was too old-fashioned, and Seidrick looked no different.

“It’s not okay to be in a hurry. You must not show such feelings to the king.”

Dania paid attention to the handmaid.

The handmaid bowed her head.

It was the same for Dania; she wished for the country’s prosperity with one heart. The kingdom has gone through too much. Cities stagnated by royal exploitation will slowly be restored. However, it was also true that they needed good news to gather them as one.

The kingdom had a new king.

And they were looking forward to the birth of a new baby for the royal family. They want to be confirmed that the fence to protect them is strong. It means that the royal family will be alive and well in the future.

No matter what Alyssa was dreaming of, she couldn’t stop people from dreaming it.

She has been accustomed to it so far.

Dania swallowed a sigh.

It is unlikely that people will be able to release her easily even if the affliction is over and the sufferings are over. The five years that Alyssa promised.

Is it really possible in there?

Even Dania is so skeptical. Dania rubbed her forehead. In fact, she, too, was looking forward to a child born to Alyssa and Seidrick.

The child will be the future of not only the royal family but also Cambridge…….

Someday.

A few years ago, Dania had such expectations.

‘Who will be the mother of Cambridge’s successor.’

That was another story for her. She doesn’t know why she misses Kendrick so much today. Dania swallowed a sad smile.

***

As soon as Alyssa finished all her stories, Seidrick hugged her.

The other day, Alyssa, unfamiliar with this contact, wriggled, although she sat on Seidrick’s lap and cried.

“Se, Seidrick?”

“Wait a moment.”

Seidrick took a deep breath.

“When the noble children talked about fate, I thought it was an illusion. Where is such a thing? But now I want to believe in that fate.”

“Fate……?”

Seidrick hugged Alyssa.

“I know about that fountain pen, Alyssa.”

“What?”

“Because I’m the one who bought you that fountain pen.”

Seidrick let out a small laugh. Alyssa was startled and pulled out of Seidrick’s arms—she had never thought of that. Is Seidrick the one who bought this fountain pen?

Alyssa alternated between the fountain pen and Seidrick.

“I escaped from the mansion at dawn because I wanted a fountain pen that was said to be released as a limited edition. It wasn’t that difficult because I did it often. How exciting it was to run down the street at dawn and run to the store. There I met a girl.”

Alyssa tightened the hand holding the fountain pen.

“She was a little girl. I thought that her tear-stained face was pretty rather than sad.”

“Hmm-hmm….”

Alyssa cleared her throat with an awkward smile.

“Even in the twilight of dawn, the girl was not hidden. I thought she was a person who resembled the stars in the night sky. It was like a doll that Ophelia had asked for in the past.”

Seidrick kissed Alyssa on the back of her hand.

“I thought I wanted to see you again.”

“Seidrick…”

“I never knew fate would come so suddenly.”

Alyssa’s eyes trembled.

“Alyssa, that’s when it started. From the moment I didn’t recognize you….”

Seidrick tilted his head and kissed Alyssa’s cheek.

“I was in love with you. Like fate.”

It was a sweet whisper.