Chapter 138
13 8 Ayla. It takes a long tbefore Selene continues. Normally that would makefeel anxious or jumpy. And I am not a fan of it now either. But, in an environment that is as peaceful as this is. I cannot feel too anxious. “I have seen a rise in chosen mates in the recent five years or so. Not situations where you lost an earlier mate. Or if you never found your mate and fell in love with someone. No situations where wolves think they can find a better wolf than the one I picked out for them” Selene suddenly starts, and I blink at her in confusion. For most of my life, I had an opinion about chosen mates just because you think you can do better too. Still, I do not see what this has to do with my situation. “David comes from a long line of chosen mates. You Ayla Hemming on the other hand cfrom a long line of people who stayed loyal to their loyal mates. Even your great-grandfather who found out he had a human mate, and even more special his human mate. The one who did not grow up with the idea of ever finding a soul mate that was created. for her” Selene continued and I could not hold back the scoff. Because where Selene is now praisingfor my honorable heritage. with my human great- grandmother. It was one of the main reasons why David rejected me. And it was the main reason why most of the pack had whispered behind my back. It fueled the bullying, even if I now believed it was because Hannah never got over her petty little jealousy, not even when David had rejected me. “I know what you must think, I truly thought that having a mate so close to him. One who he grew up with, that it would stop him from ||| O 1 38 Ayla 1218 Vouchers rejecting you. Sadly I was wrong, both in David’s capability to love. and in Phillip’s capability to let
his family make their own decisions.” Selene looked guilty and I still had a lot of questions left. I sort of got why I was mated to David and what it would bring him. Or would have brought him if it was not for him rejecting me? I still couldn’t cup with anything David could bring me. Nothing that was in it forso to speak. “What would have been in it for me, what made David the perfect mate for me?” I asked Selene, unable to hold back even with her looking as guilty as she did. “Nothing, only he could give you. You are meant to be a Luna or the Luna of all Luna’s but I figured that out later. There is a reason why sometimes mates get rejected. Or that smates turn out to be terrible. All of you still have a free will. All of you will develop your personality. And those personalities will either make the paring better. or worse. It is not an exact science” She pauses speaking for a minute. to smile a nostalgic smile. Almost like she wishes it could be an exact science. That she could. make sure every mate would be as perfect as Grillin is for me. Weirdly, she is the Goddess. The one I have been told to honor and praise for all of my life. But as we are sitting here speaking she doesn’t seem unreachable or untouchable. She remindsof a young mother is still finding out what she needs to do to best raise her pup/? Who She tellsall about mates, and how she hoped I would be the one to save the BloodMoon pack. How her heart hurts every tshe sees a pack failing. The longer she speaks the more I get her reasoning. David. might not have been right for me. Not even when I tried to believe that he was. He could have madehappy if he had tried better. If he would have been a mate like Selene intended mates to treat each other’ S. 三 11 2011 Vouchers He would have never madeas happy as Griffin is doing now. And his first fated mate would never have made him so happy as I make Grillin. But it’s not like we would have known about each other and what lives could have been like. You cannot miss what you never heard. So the four of us
wouldn’t have been unhappy. We would feel like we had all we could wish for. Just looking at the carnage that had happened now showed how much better the Kingdom would have been if Selene’s first plan had worked out. Now that I had her next toand she seemed to be so eager to speak I wanted to take advantage of the possibility. “Okay, I get that you cannot stop people from changing and becoming cra ppy mates. Or even rejecting mates but why do you punish the rejected mate? When David rejectedand I was hurting like that. I felt abandoned by you” I asked her and her face fell. “It was not meant to be like that, the reason I made a way to reject your fated mate. Was to make sure you would not feel the bond, the sparks if your mate was unworthy. All coming back to the fact that I foolishly thought that you would all be so happy with your fated mate. That no one would ever reject their mate, not unless they had a very good. reason to do so” She says and she givesthat ssad smile she has givena few times. While it is still weird to see the Moon Goddess so humanlike sad and vulnerable. It does make sense why wolves that get rejected hurt so much. It was meant as a punishment. Not punishment for getting rejected as much. But punishment for being someone so bad, so vile that not even your fated mate was left with another option than to leave you. It could have been beautifully poetic if only Selene had fully. taken our free will into account. And talking about free will she had tolda lot but nothing that had ||| 1 38 Ayla 1288 Vouchers. maderethink my want to get back to Griffin. I was shocked and sad about how things turned out. Deep down I wished that Selene had madeand Griffin fated mates at the beginning because it would have saveda lot of pain and trouble. I couldn’t change the past, and since it had ledto Griffin I wasn’t too sad about it either. “Selene you said you would tellsomething that might makereconsider wanting to go back
and be with Griffin. But nothing you said so far those. Because honestly, part ofis still hoping you just hurry up so I can go back to Griff, you know I think he needs me.” I tell her and this ther smile is not timid or broken. Her smile is radiant now and bright as she looks at me. Before tellingto listen closely. For a few seconds, I have no idea what she is talking about. But then I hear it, Griffin’s voice in the far distance. “Cback tonow baby, I need you” I cannot see him, and his voice sounds too far away. “He found your body, you’re in a coma and of course, Griffin wants you back, but I have put you through so much. You are welcto just stay here. And I will make sure Griffin doesn’t hurt too much after you die. O