The Incubus System

The Incubus System Chapter 589. A Woman and A Mother

"We should do this again in the future," she whispered. A soft smile on her face didn't show any lustful intent anymore. I knew she just wanted to spend more time with me.

I agreed and kissed her forehead affectionately.

"Yes," I replied. "Let's do it again sometime." There was a trace of bitterness in my tone of voice since I knew after this, both of us would be busy. But again, I didn't want to destroy our moment so I decided to hold back my mixed feelings.

"Yes." She leaned toward me and snuggled close to me. Once again, our raw skin touched each other and gave warmth to each other.

I hugged her waist gently and let her fall asleep in my arms. But strangely, even though I was the one who smothered her, I was the one who felt her warmth. Something I missed.

Is this a mother's warmth? Or is it because I started seeing her as a woman?

Those mixed feelings stirred inside of me to the point I didn't know what I should take it as. I knew all these sexual things were a form of a mother's love for her child. Okay, correction. It was a form of a succubus queen's love for her demon son. But I was stuck in my own feelings where I didn't know what to think of it as.

A mother?

A woman?

A sex partner?

The more I thought about it the more confused I became. My dilemma filled my head, but not a word could come out of my mouth. I couldn't even close my eyes.

"Ethan?" Lilieth's soft voice dismissed my thoughts.

"Hmm?" I answered her with a humming sound and glanced at her.

"Are you thinking about something?" She made a bull-eye guess.

It surprised me since I didn't show any gestures or clues about it.

"How did you find out?" I asked in surprise.

"Mother's intuition," she replied lightly.

I didn't know if she was joking or not, but I knew most mothers had that. When I was little, my human mom used to have it. So every time I lied that I fell in the park when I was actually bullied by my classmate, she always knew it.

"Mind telling me?" she asked again.

I paused for a moment in hesitation before I let out my voice again.

"I don't mind. But… you and dad might not like it." I knew I couldn't keep everything in silence forever. At least, I hoped... by saying it, it would clear my head a bit.

Lilieth distanced herself spontaneously due to my words.

"What is it, Ethan?" Her curiosity and concern were evident in her tone of voice. Her eyes looked deep into mine.

"If--- Just If I love you as a woman, not as a mother, will you accept it?" I asked. My hesitation was evident in the tone of my voice. There was an obvious fear from there since this question might destroy our relationship. It was a taboo question after all.

"You mean… you are starting to see me like Nefaris and the others?" she repeated, making sure my intention was.

Her question made me think again and compared myself to how I saw Nefaris and her.

"It's not really like Nefaris," I admitted. A frown on my forehead. My eyes trembled and were filled with obvious confusion. It wasn't like Ivy and the others either. Or even if I compared her with Celia, Mia, or even Emma, it was not the same. My feelings for her were different. I couldn't compare it to any other woman. Either my servants or partners.

"Then what?" she asked for my explanation in a soft voice.

I was silent again for a while before I finally answered her.

"I don't know. My feelings for you are deeper than my feelings for them, yet I don't know how to put it. I can't explain it. It's more complex than that."

"Does that mean you want to snatch me from Lord Damon? And make me your woman?" she asked me in a gloomy tone.

*Ba-thump*

That question made my heart beat faster. My heart pounded in my chest. I couldn't breathe. I was lost. Confused. Lost. Conflicted. Torn apart.

Why am I so conflicted? Why do I feel so confused? Is that what I want?

Was it because I loved her so much? Was it because I didn't want to hurt her? Or was it because I wanted to be with her forever?

All these thoughts and emotions swirled inside of me and made me dizzy.

"He cares about me and has sacrificed a lot for me. He is my dad and I don't want to take his happiness," I admitted.

"Then what do you want?" she asked again.

"I wish I knew." I pressed my lips for a second before I spoke again. "I just want to say it to you and that's all," I whispered.

Due to my answer, she hugged me. Her warm embrace caused my heart to melt. I could feel her breasts press against my torso. The softness of her skin caressed my back, sending tingles throughout my body. Her hair tickled my neck.

I enjoyed her warmth before I spoke again.

"Lilieth, how do you feel about me? Do you only see me as your son? Or do you also see me as a man?" I decided to ask her a direct question.

"I'm Lord Damon's Succubus, Ethan. My feelings and everything are tied to him," she confessed.

I quickly understood that it wasn't about her feelings anymore. The contract had been made and she could not run from it.

"I will take that as a no." I couldn't complain either since I also did the same to my partners so I knew the consequences. But I couldn't get rid of this possessiveness that bothered me.

"Thanks for your understanding, Ethan…" she whispered.

"Don't thank me..." I closed my eyes. 'Yeah… Don't thank me. It's just a stupid confession after all.'