His Beautiful Addiction

Diana took the bag and murmured a weak 'yes' then she locked the door.

Walking to the mirror, she cleaned her face with her little face towel and applied the makeup she usually carried around. Staring at her reflection in the mirror, Diana sighed, she still looked like she had cried but thankfully, she told him she was on her period so she would just say she cried because of the pain.

Taking in a deep breath she walked to the door, and held the handle, waiting for some seconds, she turned it and stepped out, smiling weakly.

Michael was standing in the middle of the office, his eyes looking worried, when he saw her step out, he walked to her immediately;

''Are you okay? Does it hurt too much?''

He took her hand as he asked concernedly; Diana looked at him for some seconds, then she forced a smile,

''It just hurts for the first minutes, and then I'm fine for the rest of the day, so I'm fine now. ''

She smiled brightly, prying her hand off him and walking towards the table.

Why was he still asking her if she was fine and caring as though nothing happened just now?

Diana was confused, maybe he didn't hear when she told him that she loved him; just maybe…

For a moment, she wanted to push all sanity aside and believe that he didn't hear her, but it was not possible, she had sounded as audible as ever and there was no noise in the room, so she couldn't make that excuse for him.

Diana's heart hurt and she quickly pushed that thought aside, the last thing she wanted to do now was cry in front of him. She needed time to comprehend what just happened but she couldn't do it with him around her.

''Is there anything you need? Anything I can get you? ''

Michael asked, he had not been with any woman on her period before, neither did he have a sister while growing up, so he did not know what to do.

''No, I'm fine, it just hurts when it's about to start, but then it doesn't hurt anymore. I'm completely fine.'' Diana smiled at him. Well, she wasn't on her period, and contrary to what she just told him, her period actually hurts like hell.

''Okay… '' Michael replied, scratching his head; ''are you sure there's nothing you need? ''

Diana laughed, ''No! I'm completely fine, besides you know I'm a baby, if I needed anything you would know. ''

She pouted her lips cutely and Michael nodded,

''Right… ''

Diana looked around, she was acting perfectly now, but she didn't know if she would be able to keep it up for long, she really needed to get out of here.

''Oh, it's past four already, and I need to meet someone, Michael I have to get going now. ''

She said, walking to him and kissing his chin.

''Uh? Wait, I'm done with work, let me drop you off. '' Michael said, walking to his table hurriedly and picking his keys.

''Ah! No! Don't worry, I came with my driver, I'll just follow him home, you don't have to worry. ''

She shook her head quickly, the truth was that she already lied that she was meeting someone when she wasn't meeting anybody, so if she let him take her, he was going to know she told a lie.

''Um, you can tell him to go back home… ''

''Right, but today has been stressful for you, just go home and have a good rest, okay? Besides, I'm meeting someone I'm not going straight home.''

Michael, seeing she had made up her mind, nodded;

''Alright then, but let me walk you to your car. '' Michael offered and she could not refuse. She watched him close his Macbook and the files in front of his desk, picking his keys, he held her hand and they walked out of the office. 

Diana was very chatty but she didn't say any word till they got to her car, and then she smiled.

''Call me when you get home okay? ''

''Alright, who are you going to see again? ''

''Um, it's Richard; he says it's important; I'll call you when I get home. ''

''Alright, take care. '' Michael kissedher forehead briefly and she waved at him and got into the car, he waited until she was out of sight before he walked to his car.

Michael entered his car and was about to drive out then he stopped,

Did he do anything wrong today?

Earlier, she looked very moody, was it her period?

He thought, right, maybe she was having mood swings, he would call her as soon as he got home. Nodding to himself, he started the car and drove out of the company.

'"Stop the car. '' Diana said to her driver, once they had almost reached home, he peeked at her through the rearview mirror, but without asking questions, he parked by the side of the road.

''Take a taxi home, I'll drive myself. ''

Diana said and he nodded, stepping out of the car, he opened the door for her. Diana got out and entered the driver's side, starting the car, she drove out.

Her eyes stared at the road, with no destination in mind. She didn't want to go home, she knew she would just bundle up on her bed and weep her eyes out.

This was the best, driving on the road, and letting the cool breeze wash her skin, taking her mind off the heaviness in her heart.

Diana did not know how long she drove around the city, soon, her eyes flashed on the red blinking sign of an empty fuel tank. 

Filing it up, she hit the road again.

It was dark now, thick black dark, Diana was getting tired, so she drove back home. She had tried her best not to think about anything but as soon as she left the busy road and drove into the quiet street; everything came rushing back to her.

Her fingers trembled around the steering wheel, and she breathed out,

She thought she was strong but she was so damn weak. She didn't know how much she loved him until now. 

She drove into her house and put off the car, her head falling against the steering,

She had summoned her entire courage to be able to tell him she loved him even when she was having doubts. She wanted to give herself to him completely but she wanted to be sure he loved her back, so she wouldn't have any regrets.

Even though he was caring and loving and everything, it was important to say it, so she would know it was really how he felt.

So many thoughts ran through her mind, so many doubts, so many…

Diana breathed out as she calmed herself.

Maybe he needed time to comprehend his feelings for her, maybe he wasn't sure yet. Yes, she had said it out of nowhere, and he didn't want to lie to her.

Diana nodded to herself, she shouldn't feel bad, it wasn't like he was forcing her to do anything or something, and besides, it was better not saying anything than telling her he loved her when he didn't mean it.

Diana smiled and stepped out of the car;

Yeah, she should focus on being a better girlfriend and leave him with no doubts that forcing him to say something he wasn't sure of yet.

Diana tried to make herself believe she wasn't making excuses for him, and in the end, she succeeded.

Accepting that she was just overthinking, she took out her phone to call him, and she saw she had about seven missed calls from him.

Her lips fell open and she quickly called him back, she had put her phone on do not disturb because of the constant vibration of her phone from incoming notifications.

''Hey, so sorry I missed your calls; my phone was on do not disturb. ''

She apologized quickly;

''Oh, no problem, are you back home now? ''

''Yeah just came back home,''

She closed the front door and strode towards her room.

''What are you having for dinner? ''

''Um, I think I'll eat something very nice today, Mary is back.''

Diana said when she saw Mary walk out of the kitchen with a tray in her hand.

''What about you, what are you having for dinner? ''

''Pasta, and I just finished making it. ''

''Mm, that's great. ''

''Alright, I'll leave you to freshen up, are you feeling any better now? ''

''Yeah, I am. I will chat you up when I'm done, okay? ''

''Alright, ''

Diana ended the call and tossed her phone on her bed. She smiled when she saw her bedsheets were changed, that was Mary for you, she changed her bedsheets as soon as she returned, whether they were neat or not.

Getting out of her clothes, she soaked herself in the bathtub.

By the time she got out, she felt a little relief.

…

Michael sat in the living room after dinner. He quickly texted Diana on WhatsApp asking her if she was done with bathing; as he waited for her reply, a message came in;

''Hey, Michael… ''

Michael's brows creased, and he clicked the message, wondering who the sender was.

''It's me, Jade, how are you? ''

Michael's fingers froze as his eyes stared at the message. She had called a few days ago when he was with Diana, and he had ignored the call, and now she was texting him. 

Although he didn't end on a bad note with her, he didn't want to be friends with her anymore, because she was an ex, and he didn't want Diana to think something was going on between them, so after contemplating for a second, he ignored the message.