Esper Harem in the Apocalypse-Novel

Chapter 471 Actions and Consequences

"When I agreed to marry Nyara, Ria was obviously against it. She begged me not to marry anyone, but I had no other choice. She then threatened to kill herself if I married her. But I promised her that I would never have an intimate relationship with Nyara.

And I broke that promise after a few months. I couldn't face Ria; I couldn't look her in the eyes. We still had our incestuous relationship ongoing, but after starting an intimate relationship with Nyara, I couldn't do it with Ria.

I was burdened with guilt and regret. I was afraid Ria would learn about it, so I kept it a secret; I didn't want her to commit suicide. But one day, when we all were having a family dinner, Nyara suddenly announced her pregnancy.

She hadn't told me because she wanted to surprise me, and I was surprised, just in a different way than she had thought. The look on Ria's face at that time killed me from inside.

She acted normally during dinner, but she left early. I chased after her as I knew what she was going to do. But I explained to her. I told her I loved Nyara, and I also asked her to stop our incestuous relationship with her.

Surprisingly, she agreed. She said she loved me and didn't want to see me sad. I was filled with even more regret and spent the rest of my days in guilt.

Then one day, Ria told me that she was getting married to a businessman a few days later. My heart sank after hearing that. At that time, I realized how Ria must have felt when I agreed to marry Nyara.

I wanted to stop Ria's marriage, but I had no right to do that. Even if I had asked her to stop, she would have just replied to me with a taunt. Eventually, the wedding day arrived, and everything worked out well.

I couldn't sleep a wink on that wedding night. My brain kept showing me scenes of Ria having sex with her husband. That night, I had another mental breakdown.

Nyara was close to her delivery date, so she used to sleep with my mother, and the maids looked after her. While I was in another room. I cried and cried. I wanted to get in the car and bring Ria back, but my body couldn't move. I couldn't think of anything.

The following day, my phone rang, and it was Ria. I didn't want to pick it up as I knew what she was going to tell me; I was afraid that she would tell me about her sex session with her husband.

But before I knew it, I had answered her call. We talked normally for a while until she started mentioning her night with her husband. It turned out he didn't even touch her. He had only married her to expand his business using our money.

I was relieved. I asked her to meet me at a place, and when we met later that day, we had sex. We had a lot of sex. That was probably the best sex of my life. And ever since that day, my relationship with Ria continued."

Rusher showed various emotions in his voice and expressions on his face while telling his story. Rudy could feel how it had changed Rusher's life completely.

'Well… this didn't help me a single bit because my case is entirely different here. My mother is not a sadist, nor such a thing would ever happen,' Rudy uttered inwardly.

Rusher smiled slightly and calmly said, "Thank you, Rudy. I felt good after letting this out. I feel like a huge burden has been lifted from my shoulder."

"No, thank you. It must have taken a lot of courage to reveal everything. But I am sure you will be much better once you confess this to your family too."

"I plan to. I will call Ria in the morning and ask her to come to the estate. And I will tell everything to everyone. I am ready for the consequences. I am ready… to take responsibility for my actions. Thank you, Rudy. Really, I mean it."

"Your welcome, father-in-law," Rudy chuckled softly. "Now, you have all my respect."

"I am glad."

A few minutes later, Rudy suddenly said, "They say, 'Learn from your mistakes and never repeat them.' But here I am, learning from your mistakes."

"Don't misunderstand, Rudy. I never thought my relationship with Ria was a mistake," Rusher stated calmly.

"But you said you regretted it. And as long as I am aware, one only regrets their mistakes."

"Yes, I did, and I still do. But I was talking about my actions and choices that led me to regret everything. Had I been more honest and loyal, I could have avoided many things."

"That's true. But hey, I am glad you had committed incest with your sister. Otherwise, Maria wouldn't have been born, and… you know what I am talking about," Rudy chuckled.

"Yeah. It makes me wonder if this was God's doing. I was completely changed after we were sent overseas. Had I stayed here, I am sure I would be long dead by now."

Rudy lowered his gaze from the sky and looked at the far ground.

"Your sister changed, you changed, your father changed… Everyone changed. One choice can change someone's life, so sometimes I wonder about different decisions. Regardless, you never know the outcome, but at least you won't regret choosing one over another.

And as for you thinking that it was God's doing, it could be a demon's doing too. Incest is forbidden everywhere, so why would you even think that? It's funny how someone blames someone if the outcome turned out bad, but if it turned out good, they would come to take credit for it.

My actions surely have many consequences, but I am always ready to take responsibility, whether it be blame or credit. But… I don't think I would be saying the same thing if I didn't have powers. What I am trying to say here is that you do something because you have that opportunity. If you didn't, you would be yearning for it."

Rudy uttered with a distant smile on his face, seemingly wondering and pondering about how much his life has and will change in the future.