Try and Try Again **Rosalie‘s POV After the night I spent with Ethan, I had expected to see him again,
but I didn‘t. He never once came to visit. There was no
compassion, no concern, no want or desire from him. I was nothing more than a task – a tool he
needed. I was sure how I was going to be able to get past all the waiting, but, eventually, I found small w
ays to entertain myself. Art had
become a big one, and when Vicky realized I loved to paint and draw, she made sure I had everything se
t up in my own private art studio – considering the music room was off limits for the time being. Days
turned into weeks, and, before I knew it, I began to lose track of time. The vast green fields
around the Drogomor pack were beautiful. The peaceful village could
be seen from the pack house, and the golden sunshine made
everything seem upbeat and hopeful. I loved to draw the sunny
sky the most — it reminded me of his clear blue eyes. A soft knocking at the door to
the art room had me turning my head to see who was there. To my surprise, Estrella stood in the doorwa
y, smiling
at me. “Hello, Estrella…” I smiled back as I set my paint brush down. “Is everything okay?” “Yes. I was
just wondering if you would like
to take a trip with me to the clinic.” For a moment I was confused as to why I would need to go, and then
as the realization hit me. I nodded. “Of course. Is Talon coming?”
“He is going to meet us there. He needs to take care of something first and asked me to come get you
and start.”
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇtEstrella was as kind as always, but I was a bit scared.
What would happen if I wasn‘t pregnant? My hand instinctively went to my stomach. Please… goddess, l
et me be carrying his child! Not just
because of the thought of what Ethan would do if I wasn‘t, but also because, deep down, a part of me
wanted to be… I didn‘t know when it had started, the idea that a small little life was growing
within me filled my heart with happiness. To Ethan, to the pack, I was fulfilling my duty; but as the days w
ent by, it felt less and less like a job for me. I wanted to be pregnant! I wanted to carry his child –
my child. Moving from my seat, I joined Estrella, and we headed down the hall
towards the pack clinic. As we stepped through the clinic doors, my eyes stayed cast to the floor. The soft
click of a knob, and Estrella was ushering me into an empty patient room. The white paper of the exam
table felt uncomfortable
against my legs. I wasn‘t sure what to expect, but when she pulled out a needle, my eyes widened. “We
have to do a blood test, sweetie. It‘s more effective than a normal pregnancy test.”
Try and Try Again – She must have seen the concern in my eyes
by her response, and when she explained, I relaxed a little and allowed her to do what she needed to do.
I was only a short while away from finding out if a life was growing within me. Deep breathing! Please be
positive, please be positive! As Estrella withdrew the needle and filled a small tube with the blood she co
llected, I sat back with a small smile, thinking
about what the next few months would entail with me being pregnant. How I would feel the small child gr
owing within me – every little kick and movement.
A short, blonde–haired woman knocked on the door, pulling
me from my thoughts. I watched as Estrella handed her the sample and then she quietly left. The worry o
ver the results made me more unsure than anything. I couldn‘t stop going over scenarios in my mind as t
o what would‘happen if I wasn‘t pregnant, and what would happen if I was.
Stop being so negative, Rosalie, I thought. Everything was going to be okay.
“So, Rosalie,” Estrella finally said, turning to face me with a smile, “How have you been feeling?”
“I‘m okay, I guess.” My response came out softer and flatter than I had meant it to, and she seemed to no
tice. “Just trying to keep busy.” “What‘s wrong? Are you not feeling well…?”
Quickly, I shook my head. “No, it isn‘t that.”
cause
“Well, what‘s wrong?” She asked again. “I am your doctor, and if something‘s wrong, I need to know.” I h
esitated, scared and unsure. I didn‘t want to cause trouble by complaining. “I just..” I paused for a mome
nt. “I miss going outside… to the village.” As soon as I spoke, the door opened, and Talon walked in. He
was gentleman–
like as usual — polite, distant but safe to be around. Had he heard what I said? I didn‘t want to be a burd
en by complaining, and
I didn‘t want Ethan to get angry because of it “You haven‘t been outside?” Estrella asked confusedly befo
re turning to Talon. “Why hasn‘t she been outside?” Talon was silent for a moment, looking between the t
wo of us. “The Alpha doesn‘t want her to leave the house. He wants her close. I‘m just following orders.”
“She has to get
Follow on Novᴇl-Onlinᴇ.cᴏmfresh air and sun. It‘s important for her health.” I heard the disapproval in Estrella‘s voice, and I clenched
my fists nervously. I hadn‘t meant for this to be a big deal, and now I was filled with regret
for bringing it up. Talon sighed, nodding his head. “I will let the Alpha
know.” I quickly sputtered, “I don‘t want to bother him. It‘s okay. I will just open the windows like I usually
do.” I didn‘t want Ethan to find out that I was complaining –
to give him a reason to be upset with me. “No, Rosalie,” Estrella said. “You
need to go outside and get some fresh air every day.” “Please –
It‘s okay. Please don‘t say anything to him,” I stammered out again. I was pleading with her to let the mat
ter go.
Having Ethan upset at me because I disagreed with his orders was not something I wanted to experience
There was a knock at the door. The blonde–haired woman came in and handed Estrella a piece of
Try and Try Again paper before exiting again. All three of us went silent. I never knew that my heart could
results were –
“So, no pregnancy yet.” Estrella was officially informing Talon. Instantly, a part of me ached for the loss of
the situation or at myself. I felt like a failure. I didn‘t conceive…
was there something wrong with me? What if I couldn‘t have kids at all?
The thought filled me with fear. What was going to happen? Would the Alpha ever look at me again …? H
a mother. I had grown to like the idea of giving life to a child. And now it was gone. “Rosalie, sweetie…” Es
Once I started to calm down slowly, Talon spoke. “What do we do next, Estrella?” “Well, it may take a few
did
I hear her wrong? Did she mean…? She pulled back, smiling at me, grabbing a paper cup and filling it wit
and she and Ethan will have to try again.” I would sleep with him again?!