Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

"Why the hell did I let you convinceto go out for lunch?” I grumbled as I watched the landscape flash by us.

It's been a long tsince I've been outside our family estate. I think the last tI was outside was when I attended Ava's wedding. To be honest, I'd been shocked when she invited me. Of all the people, I thought I would be the last person she would want at her wedding.

"Because you needed to get outside," Molly replied, pullingback to the conversation.

"I do leave the house, Molly," I said, defending myself.

Her scoff irritatesso much.

"Going to the garden doesn't count as going out," she retorted. "Now, stop complaining and just sit back and relax. You'll enjoy this small outing; I promise you that.

"I doubt that." With that, I lean back against the chair and close my eyes. My mind was racing a thousand thoughts per minute. I couldn't grasp them or control them.

Since my talk with Molly in my room, my mind has been racing with ideas. I know it won't be easy but she's right, I can sit in my room, wallowing and cursing my stupidity. If I continue like that, I may never get the chance to have my son with me.

My biggest challenge, though, is Calvin.

Gunner is still young and I believe I can get him to forgive me. I really want him to forgive me. I want to have a relationship with him. It's not too late. The problem is Calvin. I know he won't easily forgivenor will he letnear our son.

Sighing for the hundredth ttoday, I try to focus on something else. It doesn't help because my mind keeps going back to Gunner and Calvin.

"We are here," Molly beams, her excitement evident.

The door opens, and my driver helps us out. I look around, realizing that the entire ride I've thought about nothing else except Gunner.

"I'm so excited; I've been dying to try this place out," she gushed next to me.

I recognized the restaurant immediately. It's been years since I've been here. This was the srestaurant Rowan broughtto when I cback. This is the srestaurant where he almost broke my hand after he witnessed Ava and Ethan. Damn, it feels like a millennium ago.

A small laugh leaves my mouth before I can contain it.

"What's funny?" Molly asks curiously.

I tell her everything as we walk inside. When I'm done, we've already been seated and given our menus.

"That's wild," Molly says after I'm done.

"I know, but I was so stupid. I saw the signs and ignored them. They were married for nine years before cback, Why the hell did I think that nothing had changed between them? It was stupid to think that Rowan hadn't developed feelings for Ava in the years they were together." "I don't think you were stupid; you were just blinded by a love that had died years ago," she said sympathetically.

I wanted to argue with her but I didn't. There was no sugarcoating my stupidity. I'm the perfect example of how even the best of lawyers can be stupid' Her eyes flash as she givesone of her intense looks.

"What?" I asked nervously.

Something was working in that brilliant brain of hers, and I was afraid of what she would conclude.

"Nothing, just wondering if the sthing happened with you," she answered after a while. "What are you talking about?" "You said that you should have known that there is no way Rowan wouldn't have developed feelings for Ava seeing they were together for years and I was wondering if the sthing applied to you and Calvin. After all, he's the only man you've ever been with." I freeze in my seat when her statement registers in my head... but then I scoff internally and relax.

"You're wrong. It was only sex between us. Yes, he had feelings for me, but they weren't reciprocated." "Are you sure about that? Then how che's the only one you had sex? You had multiple opportunities and had men vying for your attention. Big shot lawyers, actors, hell even billionaires, but you never paid any of them attention. You always went back to Calvin." I glare at her when she smiles, triumphantly. Shifting my eyes from hers, I try to hide from the questions she flung at me. Mainly because I didn't have an answer to any of them.

She's right. I had the attention of men and so many of them wanted something serious, yet I always elrefused. always reasoned it because I was still hung up on Rowan, but that doesn't explain why Calvin was an exception. Why he was different from the other men and I always ended going back to him. "You know what I think?" she asks, her smile transforming into a grin. “I think the sthing that happened to Rowan happened to you. The sreasoning you used applies to you, Emma. There is no way you would sleep with the sman more than seven years and dnot develop feelings for him. And like with Rowan, your feelings for Calvin were clouded by the love you had for your ex. A love that you both held on to because none of you got closure," she finished We order and eat our lunch in silence, but her words keep ringing in my head. She was wrong, though; there's just no way I would have developed feelings for Calvin and not be able to notice, right? Molly is wrong. She had to be wrong.

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