Chapter 0220
I always wondered what authors talked about when they said “earth shattering k*ss‘. This
was it.
My senses really have left the building because I grab the back of his head and deepen
the k*ss. It’s like I couldn’t get enough of him and I just wanted more. Even Ethan’s k*sses
didn’t feel this way.
I get lost in his k*ss as he devours my mouth. This was exactly what I always dreamed of. I
always wanted Rowan to k*ss me like he wanted me. This what I’d wanted from him every
time he came home from work or left in the morning. This was what I wanted every time
we made love. We never got that though. Not
because I didn’t try, but because he never wanted me.
“You tried being a descent F*** but you weren’t even good at it. Every time I was inside
you, it’s Emma | wanted, it’s Emma I imagined beneath me. Every time I cummed, it’s her
face I saw. You were nothing
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇtspecial, just easy and so I used you. I used you like the F***ing slut you are
The words he flung at me a couple of months ago hit my head like a wrecking ball. I
wrench myself from
his hands, as the words play over and over in my head. Tormenting me now, like they did
when I first
heard them from his mouth.
I was breathing hard as I stared at him.
“Ava?” he calls in confusion
“Every time I was inside you, it’s Emma I wanted, it’s Emma I imagined beneath me” I
quote his words. You were nothing special, just easy and so I used you like the F***ing slut
you are”
“Ava” he tries again, his voice barely above a whisper.
My tears start filling and obstructing my view of him.
That’s what you said to me. You said I was nothing but an easy F*** and a place holder for
your precious Emma
Why the hell did it still hurt? Is it because he k*ssed me like he wanted me when in reality
we know that he never cared for me?
“Listen to me, Ava. Please” he begs, but I don’t see him. The only thing I see is his face
twisted into a mean glare as he shattered my heart with those words.
Please leave, Rowan
No he stands his ground. “Not until you listen to me”
I just wanted him to leave me alone. I just wanted to go to sleep and forget that we
k*ssed.
“Fine then” I turn around and take my car keys.
“What are you doing?” he asks.
“If you won’t leave, then I will.”
I was just about to step into the hallway when his voice stops me.
“I’ll leave. It’s late and you shouldn’t be out by yourself”
Follow on Novᴇl-Onlinᴇ.cᴏmI don’t say anything. Just wait for him to leave.
He starts to and I begin breathing relief. That stops when he steps next to me. Before I can
do anything.
he tips my chin up and places a gently k*ss on my l*ps then on my forehead.
I glare at him.
I
Instead, he gives me a small smile before he quietly leaves. The moment I hear his car
leave, I lock my
door and rush upstairs to my room.
After changing I get into my bed and will my tired mind to sleep. I still couldn’t believe
that I k*ssed
Rowan. It felt so damn good and that’s what scares me.
It’s easy to give in to this new version of him, but I can’t because no matter what I can’t
risk getting hurt
by him again and we all know if there is something Rowan is good at, it’s hurting me.