Will of chaos



This whole process was being heavy for me, far beyond what I expected, I think I was too naive to try to complicate things, the Awakening Ceremony is in its initial phase and I can already feel my legs starting to get weak, I can't even imagine when the time comes to grant power and I have to use the special Dragon Seal I created. 

I can't help but worry, but I can't lie to myself, it only heightens my curiosity in proportion as I realize the danger I'm walking into on my own like an idiot. 

Sigh 

"I don't like to change the things I decide..." (I) 

I spoke low enough for no one to hear, I just needed to get out the frustration of thinking about giving up halfway through just because it's hard, that's something I can't accept in myself. 

I know it's suicidal thinking to say the least, especially considering this current situation, but even in my childhood in my previous life if I had given up at any of the difficult times, I would never have achieved anything, let alone reached the age in which I arrived, I would not have been able to start my video game company and I would never have been able to help the orphanage. 

Even in this current life, if I had given up at some difficult or dangerous time, I might not have even made it out of the Forest of Blood alive or I would still be wandering around the outskirts of Valen City. 

"Advance even if your legs break along the way, then drag yourself with your arms to advance further..." (I) 

I never let anything stop me, I never used the convenient excuses I could use to give up on something or not even start something, I could have said that I was an Orphan, that I had a weak body, that my health was getting worse and worse, I could have said that it was just a Leech or just a Goblin, there were so many convenient excuses that no one would criticize if one chose to give up at some point. 

"In the end, it always comes down to my will..." (I) 

It's always been that, I knew when I was just an orphaned child, I knew when I was just a sick man struggling to stay conscious in a hospital bed one more second, I knew when I was a Leech in the middle of a forest full of Monsters and I know it now. 

Willpower is always the first and most important step, if you don't even have that willpower to move forward, then there's no way to go. 

Ding! 

<[ Starting Awakening Ceremony □●●■○■○□●○ ]>

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<[ The Incomplete Individual is already fundamentally connected to you ]>

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<[ Incomplete Individual is already subordinate to you ]> 

I could feel the connection between me and cocoon as I strengthened my will to continue, I made this connection mix with the energy flows between me and him to further strengthen the connection, I still have my doubts of the creature I am helping to create here, so the stronger that connection is, the better for me. 

That he is fundamentally connected to me is not surprising, it is born from a Curse that I invented and used, even the base power that circulates through his body is something that came from me, he also does not have a Soul or mind of his own to make decisions, his Basic instinct is too primitive for that sort of thing, so I figured I wouldn't need any permission other than mine. 

Ding! 

<[ Grant 3 powers to incomplete individual ]> 

My body was already weakening from the amount of energy and vitality leaving my body, even some of the full barrels of my blood around me were already half full in an attempt to replenish the blood evaporating in my veins to become additional vitality going to the cocoon. 

My Soul was also receiving tremendous pressure both because of the attention of the Gods and the Awakening Ceremony itself. 

But now my mind was also being affected, the amount of Skills, bloodlines, and their variants appearing in my mind now was like a punch, mainly because certain objects that I didn't expect appeared, but I'll ask my sisters about that later. 

By that time I had already thought about what to bestow on this Cocoon. 

1. [ Blessing of Zenos (□●●○■○□●■○■○) ]

2. [ Blood Eclipse Dragon Demigod Authority (Zenos) ]

3. [ Seal of the Primordial Dragon of Eternal Light (Zenos) ] 

As soon as I selected the three things I had thought of I began to notice inconsistencies, when trying to bestow my Holy Power I already knew that a Blessing in my name would come, but this Blessing is not written with what I expected, there were things that I myself did not could read being inscribed in the same Runes that my Dragon Totem has in its monument. 

Even the Dragon Seal that I worked alongside Karina to create with the power of 100 Dragon Seals has a name that clearly goes beyond a normal one, but that's my mistake for not even thinking to identify the item before using it, just by its appearance and the energy it exudes, it was clear that it was no longer a normal item, if you can call a Dragon Seal a normal item. 

The Transcendental Authority skill was the only one that was written as I expected, I used Authority when I created Alice and Karina as my Saints, and thanks to that my connection with them was as strong as the one I have with my Familiars and I want that for what whatever is coming out of this cocoon. 

I was right to have already chosen these three elements to bestow upon him before the Awakening Ceremony, that's because I was being overwhelmed with the amount of information flowing in my mind, which luckily ended the moment I chose these three powers to grant him. 

Ding! 

<[ Power grant ended ]>

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<[ Wake-up process starting ]> 

I felt all of my Vitality, Mana, Ki, Spiritual Energy, and Holy Power burst out of my body as they passed through the flow of power heading towards the cocoon which began to glow brighter and brighter with the stars composing the energy layer around its body coming out of it to float around it in ever-increasing numbers. 

The only reason why I didn't immediately faint or die is that I was left with the equivalent of 1 vitality in my body due to the intervention of the 3 blessings within me, but even so, I lost all the energy in my body and all the blood inside me evaporated leaving only a nearly mummified body behind, even the barrels of blood I prepared are completely empty. 

Ding! 

<[ Summoning [ Star Primordial Blade ] to serve as an intermediary for the Authority to be granted ]>

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<[ Summoning [ Dragon Totem ] as a means for birthing the Incomplete Individual ]>

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<[ Temporarily summoning Eve (Priestess of Zenos) to witness the Ceremony of □■○□●□○ ]>

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<[ Invoking Karina (Dragon Saint of Zenos) to be the witness of the Ceremony of □■○□●□○ ]>

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<[ Invoking Alice (Saint of Zenos) to be the witness of the Ceremony of □■○□●□○ ]> 

Suddenly all the space within the area distorted, I felt as if my own soul was reaching its hands through Space in search of something, then I saw my two Saints and my Priestess appear in front of me, the three of them with their Auras changing as they allowed my presence that is all over this place enter your bodies. 

But even with the three of them here, space didn't stop shaking, in fact, it just became more unstable as space cracked and broke in two places, one on each side of where the pod was. 

From one side came a colossal sword of 100 meters whose handle seems to be formed of Dragon bones, but the blade was made of black crystal like my scales, the blade had stars and energy flows forming Runes as if they were constellations with an eclipse in the blade base. 

That was my Starblade, but now it was a little different, its stellar interior now looked almost like a portal to a real starry sky. 

On the other side what came out of the square into space was a Dragon shaped version of me which when it came into view made the sky change to a night sky full of red stars with an Eclipse right at the highest point, this was a Dragon that looked like it was made of stars whose body is camouflaged in this starry sky as if it were Ethereal. 

This was my newly created Dragon Totem, which was supposed to be in the Holy Lands of Dragons. 

The Dragon that now appears to be part of the sky moves to stand above the pod and the 100+ meter long sword flies into his hands with its blade pointed downwards, as this happens space stabilizes and the two rifts in space close. 

I felt my mind blur as if it were surrounded by fog and my eyelids began to feel weighted down by mountains trying to make me close my eyes, I was so weak the only reason I could stand was the space keeping me still where I was he was. 

My own soul was shaking as if the effort of bringing it all this far was the limit of what it could do, it wasn't even pain I was feeling, it was the kind of exhaustion I only felt in my previous life when I struggled not to close my eyes. eyes knowing he might never wake up from his coma. 

I was simply having trouble keeping up with events, but that didn't seem to matter as everything continued while forcing me to maintain consciousness. 

Ding! 

<[ Zenos (□□●○□■○) created a □●□□○□ of Eclipse □■□□●●■○□○□○ ]>

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<[ ■□■●□●□□●□■□□●□■□●□■ ]>

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<[ ○●■○■○□○■•□•■■□□○□ ]>

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<[ Beginning Process of forming the physical body of the incomplete individual using the Materials and [ Vital Energy ] already available ]>

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<[ Beginning the transition and awakening from the [ Embryonic Creature ] to a □○□■●●● ]>

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<[ Beginning Process of forming a true Soul for the incomplete individual using all [ Soul Energy ] already available ]>

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<[ Beginning transition and awakening from [ Nascent Soul ] to Holy Soul ]>

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<[ Do you allow the use of your Mind and memories for the base formation of the mind, consciousness, and personality of the incomplete individual? ]>

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<[ Yes / No ]>

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<[ Fragments of memory and consciousness of hundreds of unidentified individuals have been detected, do you want to use them when refining from your higher will for incomplete individual mind development? ]>

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<[ Yes / No ]>