NovelEnglishChosen By The Moon
Chapter 187
Lewis POV
“I'm not ok...” | saw the gathered tears in her eyes finally fall down her flushed thin checks. “I'm not ok.’ Her
head shook quickly as she began to sob. It made my heart contact and before I'd even realized | had moved, |
was pulling her into my chest, hugging her trying my hardest to calm her down, while being happy she was
finally letting her pain
out. “I'm not ok!”
And so | drew my wolf sides pleasure and happiness at holding my mate in, forcing it down as | waited.
| waited for her to finally explain her thought process to me. | waited patiently while cuddling my girl, so she
could explain everything in her own time. | didn’t have to wait too long as one admittance was enough to let
everything
flood out of her.
“I'm not ok, I... I killed my mom, | killed her...” | shook my head but Dylan's hysterical sobbing cutoff as she
continued her sorrow filled admittance. “We didn’t get along that well, but | miss her... | miss her so fucking
much,
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇtup and every t| close my eye’s | can see her... | see how lifeless her eyes were. How still her body was, how
messed bloody her face was.” This was breaking my heart to see such a strong willed person crumple
underneath all the guilt and trauma she had been dealt. “You kn e last thing | ever said to her was that | hated
her. | called her a traitor, | swore at her and | will never be able to apologize for it. Ill never get the chance to
beg for her forgiveness.” Wow... | genuinely had no idea she carried around so much guilt. | just held her, and
listened. For the first tsince meeting her | remembered she was only 17. The entire world had put so many
expectations and pressure on her shoulders she had absolutely no way of staying grounded. This selfish, sadistic
new world had slowly sucked out every bit of fight she
had left.
“l can’t sleep...” she shouted in beween sniffles and whimpers. Her face buried into my chest as my arm gently
squeezed around her back and my other hand held her head into my chest, my heartbeat definitely meeting her
ear and hopefully helped to calm her slightly. “I can’t sleep without seeing him... without feeling him... without
reliving everything he did to me.” A small shudder of disgust racked through her at the thought of josh, which
causedto tighten my arms around her. | knew she was struggling, and | knew she had been through so
much, but even | hadn't realised how traumatised she truly was. “I can’t go into the main dining area with
everyone else because everybody stares at me. Which is stoppingfrom getting food.” Her head shook
rapidly as her arms finally wrapped themselves
around my body.
I'm ashamed to say that her touch felt amazing, she was in an extremely vulnerable mind set and yet, | was
enjoying holding her, and being there for her. | was glad she was finally letting someone in, and that someone
was me.
“I'm weak, and damaged and | hate everything about myself. I'm ugly and scarred, I'm tired all the tbut
can’t do a thing about it. Im starving and yet | feel so full off a single mouthful of food... | just feel like I'm
drowning, I'm drowning and can’t find a way out without another tidal wave draggingdown.” | wasn’t sure
when we had found a seat on the grass below us, but we had. Most of her weight was resting onas she
continued to holdand cry into me. “He's taken everything from me, Lewis. King Josh has leftwith
nothing.”
No, that wasn’t true. He had not taken everything because she still refused he advances, she still refused his
mark, which meant she still had fight in her.
“That's not true... He's taken a lot, I'll admit that, but he’s not stolen everything. You can still fight.” Her head
shook rapidly and tears continued to stream down her face.
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“I can’t fight the king while I'm battling myself. I'm not the one to bring him down. | know it and you know it.”
Follow on Novᴇl-Onlinᴇ.cᴏmShe was so wrong, | fully believed her to be the one to bring about change.
“You're are the one who can invoke change. Dylan, you are the one person who can unite everyone against the
royals. You're the only person who has enough fight in them.” She shook her head rapidly crying as she did so, |
felt her knees buckling slightly every t| put pressure on her.
“I can’t, | can’t. | want peace! | want to rest, i need to rest... | just want to be normal.” She wasn’t normal though,
she was far from it.
“If you think you can’t do it... Then... use me!” She already had my heart. There's was absolutely no denying it
at this point. She had my heart and soul in the palm of her hand, all she had to do was tellto roll over and I'd
do it. “If you're drowning, then useas your float... If your fighting then letbe your weapon, letbe
your shield. UseDylan, usein anyway that helps you... just use me... I'm begging you.” Why was |
hurting so much? Every sob that escaped her beautiful lips caused my heart to contract painfully which only led
something, whenever you need anything, it doesn’t matter what tit is. I'm yours. Morning, evening, and
night. I'm yours and will always be yours.”
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vpwhitewaters
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oh yeah! keep this going!
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