Chapter 0121
[Warning: The following chapter contains content that maybe triggering to some]
No. This can’t be happening to me. I can’t be pregnant. Not now and definitely not with
Ethan’s baby.
“Why God?” I whisper as the tears fall down my face.
I wait for an answer but none comes. He doesn’t tell me why this was happening to me.
He doesn’t tell
me why he had to make me this unlucky.
I try to pick myself from the bathroom floor, but I just don’t have the energy. I’m
completely drained.
Was it my lot in life to have unplanned pregnancies? First with Noah and now this one.
I stare sightlessly at the tiled floor, thinking back. Ethan and I had unprotected S** once. I
was supposed
to take a morning after pill, but I completely forgot. By the time I remembered, a few days
had already
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passed.
I told Ethan about it. I expected him to be angry about it, but he wasn’t. Instead he calmed
me down. We
both reasoned that it was unlikely for me to be pregnant.
I noticed some changes, like my period being late, but I thought it was due to the stress I
was under. I
never gave much thought to my increase in appetite since I always eat when I’m stressed
or sad.
The banging on my door startles me, but I don’t get up. Now more than before, I didn’t
want to see
anybody. When the banging continues, I put my head between my knees and cover my
ears. I just wanted
whoever it is to leave.
It becomes silent for a while. I breathe a sigh of relief but then start to panic when I hear
the door open.
and heavy footsteps walking upstairs.
Before I can do anything, like maybe hide, in case it was an intruder. A shadow fills the
door way to my
bathroom.
“Ava?” Rowan’s deep voices resonates through the entire room.
The moment my eyes meet with his, I start crying again. Of all people, why did it have to
be him?
“What are you doing here?” I ask through my sobs.
He comes and kneels before me, his eyes staring at me with an emotion I can’t figure out.
“Emma told me she saw you at the store. She said you looked hysterical and that you
bought a bunch of
pregnancy tests before leaving” he tells me softly, his fingers wiping away my tears.
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Damn it Emma and her big mouth! What the hell did she think she’ll accomplish by telling
Rowan that I bought pregnancy tests?
“She shouldn’t have told you. It’s none of her business neither is it yours” I hiss.
He doesn’t react instead he asks. “Have you taken the test?”
I just nod my head as more tears fill my eyes.
“And?”
Follow on Novᴇl-Onlinᴇ.cᴏmI don’t answer him. I just couldn’t bring myself to admit what the test informed me.
When I don’t answer he surveys the room. His eyes land on them laying near the sink. He
stands up and goes to check them. I should be fucking angry that he was violating my
privacy, but I couldn’t bring myself to care. Not when I had much more important things to
worry about.
He comes back and this time instead of kneeling before me. He instead sits next to me.
“Congratulation. You’re going to be a great mother” he tell me an odd catch in his voice.
I lay my head on his shoulder as I speak. “Am I? You didn’t ever want to have another baby
with me even though I wanted one desperately. I thought it’s because you thought I was a
bad mother”
I was always so insecure when it came to Rowan. I knew the real reason. He didn’t want
another baby because he was holding out hope that Emma will come back. I lied to myself
because it was better to think he thought I wasn’t a good mother than to acknowledge
that he just didn’t want a baby with me.
“I’ve never thought you’re a bad mother, Ava. You’re the fucking best. One just has to look
at the relationship between you and Noah to know it’s true” he pauses. “Can I tell you
something?”