Coming Home For Christmas

Did he seriously just say what I think he just said?.

Did he say he plans on taking us back home to New York?.

Who the hell does he think he is?.

“Mummy, are we going to New York?" “No “Yes” Logan and I said at the same time as I glared at him while he looked at me annoyed.

wanted to rip him a new one for discussing this in front of our children but before I could unleash hell on him, Logan Junior stopped me with one simple request.

“Can we please eat our food in peace before it gets cold?” “Of course, son” “Sure, baby" We all ate our food and I struggled to swallow many of the bites I was eating because of the uncomfortable silence and thick tension that was in the air Twas also finding it hard to breathe so I decided to get up and go and make myself a coffee.

“Where are you going?” Logan asked me with slight panic in his tone.

“T'm going to make myself a coffee, do you want one?” “Yes, please, no." “No milk or sugar, you like your coffee just like your soul, black as hell” 1said while rolling my eyes as I stood up.

“I don't know why you always say that, Logan because the only thing that's black about you is your sumame” Tsay as I walk towards the kitchen and Logan laughs.

Till the kettle up and put it on before grabbing two cups from the cupboard.

While I was making coffee for myself and Logan, the kids started asking their dad questions again and I couldrit help but eavesdrop on their conversation because Iwas also eager to know what Logan's got to say.

It hasn't even been twenty-four hours since Logan re-appeared in my life again but it seems he's found a permanent spot in at least two of our kid's lives because they keep calling him dad which Tm not against but Iwill be if Logan plans on abandoning our children if I refuse to return to New York with him.

‘The last thing want is for my kids to get hurt, especially at the hands of either myself or Logan and that's gonna happen if they get too attached to him and he has to leave them "Dad, are you gonna leave us if mum refuses to go back to New York with you?" “Of course not, Dayton” Logan says sounding hurt and sad.

“Look, T know we've only just met and we dont know each other as well as we should” He says and my eyes snap shut as guilt ills my heart.

“But that doesnt change the fact that I'm your father and 1 love you guys, I also love your mother even if she doesn't believe me right now” “But how are you gonna be our dad when we live in London and you live in New York?” Good question, my girl.

“I don't know, princess but Tll work it out, there's no way I'm letting go of you all now that I've got you"

Oh god Tlet out a slow and shaky breath as finished making the coffee.

When Iwas done, T went back over to the table and I placed one cup down in front of Logan before sitting down and taking a sip of my own coffee.

“Thanks, love" “Youre welcome” “Mummy” “Yes Teddy, love” “Tlove you" My daughter said while smiling “Tlove you too" Teddy's smile got bigger and brighter as she went back to eating her food That was random Tmean, it's not random that Teddy or any of my kids for that matter says love you to me, it just felt random that she'd say it out of nowhere like that After breakfast, I cleared everything up and put the dishes in the dishwasher while Logan and the kids sat in the living room with each other

Twas clearing up the kitchen and all of the mess that was made from breakfast when Logan suddenly approached me “Lace, can we talk, please?” “It's about going back to New York then don't waste your time because I'm not going back” “Why? why won't you even entertain the idea?” Logan asks angrily pissing me off “Why should, Logan?" Twhisper shouted as I threw the towel Iwas holding down on the counter “Why should I go back home, hmm? what s there for me?" Me He says shocking me "What?" “T'm there for you, Lace” “Youre there now, Logan but will you always be there for us?"

Task with a shaky voice.

Logan immediately closes the space between us and places his hands on my shoulders "Of course, Tl always be there for you, Lacey, I promise I'l always be here for you and our kids” “Why?. why do you wanna be a part of our lives so badly, Logan? the kids I can understand because they're your flesh and blood but me_why do you want me? why would you want someone like me when you can have any woman on the planet? and please don't say it's because you love me because that's not a reason to wanna be with someone” “Why isn't it? is it so wrong for you to believe that love you and I wanna spend the rest of my life with you, Lacey?" Logan asks annoyed “Yes itis actually because like you said earlier we grew up together Logan, I watched for many years as you brought a different girl home for Christmas, for Thanksgiving, for the Fourth of July, hell even for Halloween, I watched as you were all over those girls draping them in jewels and anything your black card could by them, taking them to the finest and most expensive restaurants, taking them on trips and weekends away and now you expect me to believe that all of this time you've loved me and you've wanted to spend the rest of your life with me?” Task probably sounding like I was jealous but I didn't care.

“Yes you should believe it, babe because nothing happened with those women" "What?" Task shocked “Nothing happened with those women, babe, in fact, most of the women you saw me with were just friends from school or college”

“Most? what about the rest?” Task and Logan runs a hand through his hair.

“The rest were just girls I asked to come with me because your brother always wanted me to bring a girl to have fun with during the holidays but I didn't want to because there was only one girl 1 wanted to have fun with and that was you, 50 instead just invited girls who were friends of mine and that's al they ever were, Lace” “Are you being serious?” Tasked barely above a whisper Twas in s0 much shock because I couldn't believe what he was telling me.

Tmean, you can't deny what you see with your own eyes and hear with your ears yet he expects me to believe everything he's telling me, not to mention, he's so handsome and sexy, how can someone like him stay single for so long? Evenif he is telling the truth and it's because I'm the only woman he's ever wanted, I still find it odd that he'd stay single for little old me.

“Look Lacey, T know you don't believe me but I'm telling you the truth” Logan said as he closed the space between us until there was barely an inch of space left “Youre the only woman I've ever wanted, Lace. actually, you're the only woman I've ever been with” Logan spoke so low that he probably hoped I wouldn't hear his admission but I did and couldn't believe what he was telling me.

“What do you mean I'm the only..oh my god, Lo_Logan, were you."

“A virgin when we had s*? yeah" Wow.

“And Tknow you were a virgin as well which I was surprised by. I thought you would've lost it to that prick you were engaged to" “Language” I chastised him as I covered his mouth with my hand and briefly looked over at our kids hoping they didn't hear their father's foul language which thankfully they didn't.

1said with a slight growl and Logan smiled at me as he gently removed my hand from his mouth and placed it on his chest, “But do you believe me now, love?" He asked and [looked back at him.

“Look Logan just because you and I were virgins when we..you know" 1said feeling flustered and Logan chuckled.

“Its still not a good enough reason for me to be with you or to go back home” “What about finding closure?" Huh.

“What do you mean?” Task and Logan looks at me with a really? look “You need closure from what happened, love, you need to talk with your family, Luca and even that pri. I mean Dylan, 50 that you can put the past behind you and move on with the kids and hopefully with me as well” “I have put the past behind me, Logan” Tsaid in an angry whisper “T'm happy, ve got my kids, my career and a life here in London, I don't need or want anything or anyone else in my life"

1said angrily but instantly regretted saying this as soon as I had finished, especially when I saw the pain and sadness in Logan's eyes “Logan, T'm so sor." “No, it's ok” Logan said sternly as he looked over at our kids.

He then tumed around and grabbed his coat and suit jacket from off the chair.

“Where are you going?” “Tve gotta go” 1 don't know why but my heart started to race and I didn't ike the fact that he was leaving.

Logan put on his suit jacket and coat before bidding goodbye to the kids who also seemed very unsettled that he ‘was leaving but they just accepted it whereas I stood there frozen and unsure of what to do or say.

Tunderstand hurt him with my words which was never my intention but what else can say or do, everything I said was the truth..or at least, think it was.

“Bye, Lace” Logan said with a grow.

He was about to leave my home when he suddenly stopped and with his back facing me, he said something which not only surprised me but it also left me with something to think about.

“Finding closure means accepting things that have happened in your past, Lace. if you truly want to move on and find peace and happiness then you need to come to terms with what happened between yourself, Dylan and Luca so that you can accept it and move on, if you don't then you'll be miserable for the rest of your life, do you really want that? do you wanna live the rest of your life alone because you can't trust someone else with your heart because of ‘what Dylan did to you? do you wanna live the rest of your life without your family in yours or our children's lives because of Luca?. the Lacey T know and love wouldn't want that” Logan said before leaving my home.