Pay With Your Heart

Chapter 223: Helpless

In-Ha felt sad for ruining his date with Eun-sun. He had waited for this opportunity for a very time but when he finally got a chance to he got the biggest blow of his life.

He sighed as he watched Eun-sun angrily step out of the car, he wanted to say something but she spoke up first.

“Just talk to me when you’re in a much better mood and you’ve stopped hurting about God knows what.” She said before stepping out of the car. In-Ha’s eyes trailed her as she walked away but there was nothing he could do. He couldn’t say anything, and the more he stayed around her the more he wanted to tell her how he felt about her. A part of him wanted to hurt Dan-Han by telling Eun-sun about his feelings for her, she could atleast make a choice between the both of them. She wouldn’t know which of them would be better for her unless she knew she had choices to make from right? But as much as he wanted to do that, he still couldn’t. Though she was upset right now, he couldn’t forget how her face lit up at the mention of Dan-Han’s name, and he had to admit it hurt him alot.

He hated himself for ruining her day, but if they stayed longer he wouldn’t know what might happen.

He hate to admit that he had really lost even without trying.

In-Ha revved his car back to life and zoomed off. His head was muddled and the tightness in his chest was still there. The thought of losing Eun-sun was so difficult on him, it hurt so much he felt his eyes tear up.

He didn’t know if it was right to cry but he badly wanted to. He wanted her in his life. He wanted to leave his old life behind, he missed having a woman that was his and just when he thought he finally had that, he lost it. He lost the one woman that made him want to love again, that made him smile.

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“Damn you Lee Dan-Han.” He cussed as he swerved the car to the side and pulled over. The tightness in his chest was growing worse and he stepped out of the car to receive fresh air.

He drew in deep breaths as he leaned back on his car. He wanted to hate Dan-Han, he wanted to go home and fight him, and tell him to leave Eun-sun alone for him. He would go on his knees and beg him and if he refused he’d fight him again, but he couldn’t do all that. As much as he wanted to hate him, he just couldn’t.

Dan-Han was more than a brother to him. He had loved him since age five and Dan-Han had always taken the role of an elder brother in his life even though he was only older by a few months. What his own father had not been able to do, Dan-Han had done more than that for him. Dan-Han would go through hell and back if he was ever in trouble just as he would also do for him. These were the reasons he couldn’t hate him and they were still the very same reasons why it hurts so badly. Maybe it would have been better had it been someone else, then it would be so easier to hate and want to snatch her away, but now he was helpless.

Damn he was feeling suffocated and he wanted to get the thoughts out of Eun-sun, most especially that taunting scene of them kissing out of his head because he was feeling suffocated by it. He had to ease the tension he was feeling, and numb his pain. He could knock himself out, that way he wouldn’t have to think much about it and there was only one place he could go for that.

In-Ha took in more breaths and hopped back in his car. He turned the car around and made his way to the club, where they always hanged out. The moment he arrived there he plonked himself on the sofa in the private room and gulped down several glasses of alcohol in an attempt to drown himself with it, but no matter what that didn’t take his pain away.

In-Ha was about to gulp down another glass when someone snatched the glass from him.

“Only you can be this foolish.” The voice said. He didn’t need to look to know who it was.

“Jae-Hyun go away. Not now.” He said as he reached for the bottle but Jae-Hyun reached for it too making In-Ha to frown as he looked at him.

“Who told you to come here?” He asked in annoyance.

“You know who.” Jae-Hyun replied.

“Tch that cocky bastard.” In-Ha cussed. “He better not come too or else-”

“Or else what?” In-Ha looked up to see him leisurely strolling into the room his hand buried in the pocket.

‘Else what?’ He asked himself when the man in question appeared before him but he couldn’t answer the question.

“Why are your here? Came to gloat?” In-Ha asked him coldly, he could feel the pain in his heart increase as he stared at Dan-Han.

“I know you.” Dan-Han bluntly replied making In-Ha to look at him with angry eyes. Exactly! He knew him. He knew him more than anyone else, he knew he liked Eun-sun, he knew they both liked the same girl but he didn’t tell him. He didn’t warn especially when he already had her.

“You knew she was the one I was talking about didn’t you?” In-Ha asked while Dan-Han nodded without hesitation making In-Ha scoff derisively.

“You’re really something President Lee. You must feel good about yourself don’t you?”

“As a matter of fact I do.” Dan-Han replied as he walked closer to In-Ha. In-Ha clenched his jaw as he glared at Dan-Han.

Dan-Han picked him up by his collar and pulled him to his feet making In-Ha yank his hand away from his shirt but Dan-Han gripped his shirt again.

“So I got her what are you going to do about it? Sit here and cry?” Dan-Han asked in a taunting tone.

“Let go of my shirt” In-Ha snapped at him but Dan-Han tightened his grip even more.

“And if I don’t?” He cocked a taunting brow at him making In-Ha livid. In-Ha smacked his hand off and dealt him a blow.

“You cocky brute!” In-Ha cussed angrily.