I Should Have Just Died

It was Sasha who greeted Alyssa first, and Sasha ran to the front, overtaking Juliana and Ophelia, and hugged Alyssa tightly. Alyssa knows it’s disrespecting the new king, but she knows it’s a behavior that came from Sasha’s heart and didn’t stop her.

“Madam…… !”

“Sasha, am I still your Madam?”

“Ah….”

Alyssa burst out laughing and hugged Sasha. She is the one who has been by her side all her life.

That’s why she left Sasha here. She wants to leave a reason to come back anytime. Sasha said as she stepped back in tears.

“Please take me too, Madam. If you can take me to the royal palace……. By your side….”

Sasha pleaded, her eyes reddened. After Alyssa returned to the royal palace, she was worried and tossed and turned, so it was difficult to sleep at night. Sasha and Alyssa have been together since childhood in the royal palace. It was a wound and a nightmare for Sasha too. Sasha knew why Alyssa had left her at Cambridge.

It was for Sasha.

It means that now she is free from the bondage of the royal family and can be comfortable.

However, she could not do it, leaving Alyssa alone there.

Alyssa knew Sasha’s heart, so she clasped her hands.

“Sasha.”

“Madaaam… … ”

“Stay here, Sasha, stay in Cambridge.”

Alyssa nodded her head.

“It’s where I’ll be coming back soon.”

Sasha’s pupils dilate, not leaving but returning……? Not staying in the royal castle, but here……?

“I’m asking Sasha for a favor. At the latest, I will return to Cambridge in a few years.”

As if Alyssa was right, Seidrick was firmly behind her. Sasha looked around. No one gets upset as if it were normal.

“Wait for me here until then, Sasha, where my child will grow up….”

Alyssa blushed slightly on her cheek.

She knew it was still too early to talk about a child, but that was what she felt right now. Alyssa quickly finished her words.

“This is where I will live. The only person I can trust is Sasha. Please look after Mother here. As you took care of me….”

“Understand.”

Sasha nodded her head.

Alyssa said she would live. She also said it was a place to return.

Alyssa had said it many times.

‘I should have just died.’

There have been several times when she truly was close to her death. But isn’t Alyssa talking about life now? That was enough for Sasha.

In the royal palace, Alyssa is not dying but living. Sasha nodded her head once more.

“That’s……”

Sasha struggled to smile.

Alyssa seems to have finally found the peace Sasha had wished for again and again.

***

Alyssa and Seidrick decided to go across the garden. It has been a long time since they walked side by side. The garden was constantly blooming and withering following the seasons. As nature embraces life and death at the same time

“It’s nice to be here after a long time. Seidrick, let’s come again next time.”

Alyssa said with a bright smile.

“Alyssa is the only one who wants to go on vacation to the mansion garden.”

“But, Seidrick doesn’t hate it, do you?”

“I …..”

Seidrick looked at Alyssa. Really.

“It’s fine. We have our memories here.”

Alyssa waved her hand at Seidrick. Now it can be said that it is a memory. Previously, this garden was a nightmare for Alyssa. It was a symbol of deception and a place of death.

However, this place was also a memory of when she broke from the shell and came out.

Meeting Seidrick for the first time.

Falling in love with him.

Realizing about life for the first time.

She bumped, broke, and collapsed, but she came back strong enough. Alyssa moved slowly. She also walked along the shore of the lake where she thought of death.

She also passed near the villa where he had been in close contact with Seidrick for the first time.

Alyssa and Seidrick’s past was here.

Seidrick was smiling after Alyssa too.

While maintaining a close relationship, he was so happy for the moment we were together. The two people, who were suspicious but unwilling to know, and deliberately deceived, were now walking side by side, under the name of a married couple.

Kendrick’s shadow no longer falls over Alyssa.

It’s no longer challenging for her to see Seidrick.

The red sunset fell on the garden.

Alyssa turned her back to the sun.

Alyssa and Seidrick’s eyes met.

Two people who thought they would never see each other in the past were looking at each other together.

Alyssa opened her lips.

“I’m glad I’m alive…”

Seidrick knew very well what that meant. He read a novel in which Alyssa, who had tried to commit suicide, wrote her death like a scenario. Alyssa, who always looked at death…..

“It’s a relief…… You didn’t die.”

It’s a relief that she didn’t die.

Seidrick choked up and bit his lip.

“I want to tell you… . Thank you for saving my life, Seidrick.”

It was possible because there was a hand that did not let go of Alyssa, who only turned away and ran away. Because there was him who told her that he loved her………

“I love you.”

Alyssa placed her hand on Seidrick’s left chest.

Thump-

The slow pulsating vibrations are felt in Alyssa’s fingertips. Alyssa smiled softly.

“Do you love me too?”

Seidrick nodded his head loudly at the confident question.

He couldn’t open his mouth because he was about to cry.

He seemed to know without saying anything. The fact that the two will be together forever.

Alyssa and Seidrick are drenched in bittersweet love.

The two will live together like this.

[END]

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