Chapter 0221
The bright light coming through my window makes me open my eyes. Instead of getting
up immediately, I just stay in bed for a while as I rub my belly and feel my baby move
inside me.
I look at the calendar on my bedside table and realize that today I just hit the sixth–month
milestone. It’s scary to have a baby. The whole journey is filled with uncertainty. I always
make sure to thank God each time I pass a milestone with my baby, knowing not all
babies get to be born.
After saying a small thank–you prayer, I get up and move downstairs. I could always
shower later, but right now I am hungry. With everything that happened yesterday, I forgot
to eat.
Thinking about yesterday brings me to what happened with Rowan. I still can’t believe
that I let him k*ss
me or that I actually enjoyed it.
It bugs me so much that I wanted more. I wanted him to deepen the k*ss. I wanted him to
take it further. I
can blame it on the hormones, but we all know that I’d be lying to myself.
Rowan hurt me so much. The fact that I wanted him yesterday makes me hate myself just
a little bit. I
promised myself to move on, yet there I was making out with him in my living room.
I want to believe that Rowan has changed, but I just can’t. Even if, by some miracle, he
has, don’t you
think it’s a little too late for us? Too much has already happened for us to make something
out of the
mess he created.
Taking out the ingredients for breakfast, I get to work. No matter what I try, I still can’t
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇtstop thinking about the damn k*ss. For heaven’s sake, why the hell did this k*ss affect me
so much? I just don’t F***ing get it, honestly.
I groan in frustration, wishing I could erase the feel of his l*ps on mine.
“What’s got you so frustrated?” Calvin’s voice startles me so much that I let go of the
eggs I was holding.
*Jeez, Cal, you scared the living day lights out of me,” I say with my hand pressing hard on
my beating heart.
“Sorry,” he grins. “I thought you heard us, given Gunner and Noah didn’t really get inside
quietly.”
turn to said boys to find them munching on the cookies that I had baked yesterday.
It’s okay, I was just a little bit lost in thought.
The prin sl*ps from his face. “Are you still thinking about what happened yesterday with
Emma?
I just nod my head. It was a lie, but he didn’t need to know that I was thinking about a
totally different
thing.
“What are you making for breakfast, mom?” Noah asks
“A fry up” I respond.
“Yes!” Gunner pumps his fist up in the air. “I love fry–ups; it’s like having all your favorite
breakfast food at
once
I smile at him. So happy that he is happy. I’m hoping that one day Emma will see the error
mend her fences with Gunner before it’s too late.
“Are you
almost done?” Noah asks. I’m so hungry.”
of her ways and
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“Not yet. Just a few more minutes, and I’ll be done. Why don’t you go wait in the living
room while I finish
up?”
“Okay,” they say at the same time, before rushing to the other room.
Cal takes the cleaning tools from me and proceeds to clean up the mess I’d made. “Sorry I
brought them
here for breakfast when we should have given you more time to yourself. It’s just that they
insisted that
they wanted your breakfast.”
I laugh at that. It’s not that Calvin was a bad cook. He just didn’t make it like I did. Their
word, not mine.
“It’s okay. I would have finished cooking and brought some over anyway, so it’s not a big
deal,” I tell him as I get back to frying the eggs.
“How are you holding up, all things considered?” I ask him
“Good.” He pauses. “I feel relieved that now everyone knows about Gunner. He’s an
amazing kid, and he shouldn’t be hidden away like a dirty secret. After my grandfather
died, I had no one until Gunner was bom. I didn’t mind it being just the two of us, but I
knew it was unfair to him given that his mother had a family. Gunner deserves to know his
uncle and grandmother.”
In my eyes, Travis and Kate weren’t people worth knowing, but they’d treated Noah well,
so I guess it was safe for Gunner to be around them.
Shit. I should really let go of my resentment towards them. They were no longer part of my
life, so it didn’t matter what they did to me before.
You’re right, Emma didn’t have any right to keep him from her side of the family
morning.
I excuse myself and leave the kitchen.
“Who is it?” I ask my son.
Follow on Novᴇl-Onlinᴇ.cᴏmHe shrugs his shoulders. “There was no one outside. Just this note.”
He hands me the note that had my name written on the front. I feel a chill run down my
back when I look
at it
“Alright, you head inside. I’ll be there in a second,” I tell him.
He nods his head and gets back in the house. Still feeling out of sorts, like I was
surrounded by an air
bubble of danger, I unfold the note.
YOU WILL PAY FOR EVERYTHING.
What the hell? My heart starts pounding as I grip the note tightly. I scan the street, but I
don’t see anyone
or anything suspicious.
I
Folding the note, tuck it into my pajama pocket. I enter my house and close the door
behind me before
heading to the kitchen.
“What is it?” Cal inquires while looking concerned. “You look spooked.”
“Nothing. There was just no one at the door.” I shrug and try to play it cool while my heart
was beating
hard against my chest.
“Maybe it’s a kid playing a prank.”
“You’re probably right,” I mutter.
1 finish preparing breakfast, and we eat to our hearts desire. Gunner and Noah share
funny stories from school, while Cal shares his from work. Even as I smile and laugh, I
can’t help but think about the note.
Something tells me that there is something more to it. I trust my instincts, and it’s telling
me that someone is after me.
My life once again seems to be in dange